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hi
this is going to be my first baby , however i am scared , frustrated, and depressed. i just cant think straight, i am 29 years and i have so much waited for this day but then now when its here,its like something is missing.i dont feel prepared,maybe this was not the way i thought i would bring my baby to the world, so the disappointment is making me so sad.i flet my job , state to be with this man ,he is here, and takes care of me but still i feel lots of things are just missing!!

priangali

Scary when it's happening to you

I went to the doctor yesterday and I was told that there was a (round) ges sac but no pole or yolk sac ... i believe i'm about 9 weeks or so based on my last period ... but the dr said I'm only 5 wks... she took my hmg to check the levels and i'm going back on Wednesday to check the levels again( i hope they double)... i was worried at first b/c I had never knew this was possible ( sac no poles or yolk)... but after reading several different message boards about this it seems to be common and over half do end in successful pregnacies and healthy babies ( according to the postings on the message boards)... but when it's happening to you it can be very scary...

Denise

Today I found out we are expecting!

Today I found out that my husband and I are expecting! I have dreamt of this day my whole life! We are 24 and 29, together for almost 5 years, and just married almost 4 months ago, we've been all smiles all day! Its amazing how much I already love our baby at 5 weeks! I look forward to the journey ahead and everything it will bring, including the most precious gift of all! This is a dream come true! Im over the moon!!!!

Nicole

Absolutely Terrified

Im 22 years old. The father of my child is 27 and he and I have been dating for four years. Although we are on the marriage and children and all that good stuff track, I was not ready right now to start that part of my life. I looked at the pregnancy test and could not believe what I was seeing. "YES" is all it said. Three letters that have changed my life forever! Me, a mother? I feel as though I am looking down on someone else. For the past three weeks, I have had headaches every single day. I wake up with a headache and go to sleep with one. Throughout the day, I am so tired that I can't focus in class and after class, I have no energy to complete assignments. I have a job at a sexual assault center as a victim's advocate. This job is very crisis based and I am always on the move and having to think on my feet. Now, I can barely even get enough energy to make it out of bed in the morning. I am supposed to graduate come May, and with the way I feel right now, I am not certain I can complete the last two assignments I have this semester. I was supposed to move back home to the Washington, DC area and begin my career working with children who have experienced maltreatment. I was researching all the possible places I couild begin my career. I wanted to implement narrative therapy, learn other therapeutic techniques, attend conferences, travel, etc. Now, I am to be a mother. I have been on birth control for the past four years. In between filling a prescription for a refill, I got pregnant. Just four days and in that time, I got pregnant. I do not know how I am to tell my sisters. They put all thier hope and faith in my life and wanted more for me. They both have children of their own and now what it is like to have such a hugh responsibility and did not want me to have the same until I was aboslutely ready. I am not ready. My boyfriend is overjoyed. He has already starting mapping out my life. Now I have to forget starting my career anytime soon. I have to move to north carolina, settle into HIS house, and be isolated from my family and closest friend in the world. Perhaps if I werent so sick, this would be more joyful. Perhaps, if my boyfriend were here in georgia with me to comfort me and help me with the headaches, dizziness, cramps, etc, I would feel a little better. Right now, I feel isolated and alone and absolutely terrified! I need somoene to talk to who may have felt or feel similar to me.

Charlotte Williams

Pregnant but don't feel it yet

I found out a week ago that my husband & I are expecting our first baby. We have been trying for a little while and I did a test before my period was due so I wouldn't be "disappointed" when my monthly arrived. Anyway, it was positive, I was so shocked. But I don't feel it yet, apart from my nipples being REALLY sensitve. We have agreed not to tell anyone until I am 4 mths along but I can feel that I am already starting to put on weight even though I have been eating so healthily that it is making me sick.
I wonder it my "not feeling pregnant" yet would have anything to do with a past TOP. Last time I was pregnant I felt I had no one to talk to, my bf (now husband) didn't tell me his feelings because he didn't want to influence me, my parents couldn't (& still can't) stand him so they weren't supportive @ all and told my that I have fucked up my life, I fucken deserved everything I got and I could fucken well forget about coming home. Charming. So, inside a week I had a TOP and then promptly went into 6 mths of server depression and was suisidal (spelling????). My bf was there beside me the whole way and we came out the other side, scared, battered and I whole lot wiser and closer.
Anyway, thoughts anyone? Anyone been here before?
Anyway 2 - Michelle first pregnancy at 27 and scared to death!, honey, what you are describing sounds like the family I grew up in, my mum on the outer with her in-laws. Now she is a bitter, twisted, sad and very unhappy woman who can't leave her husband because she doesn't now how to function without him. Get some councilling gf and look after you and more importantly, that little one of yours. Hugs & Kisses

Anne