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3 miscarriages in 1 year

My names Amanda and im 20 years old. I've had 3 miscarriages w. my recent 1 being a week ago...The first miscarriage I was 6 weeks pregnant..well supposed to be 8, but the fetus only measured 6 weeks so me & my dr thought maybe its just "bad luck" so 4 months later I got pregnant for the 2nd time and of course I was super paranoid and avoided everything that you basically should and gave up everything I did last time that I thought mightve caused a miscarriage I was also put on prometrium 200mg for my progesterone bcus it was low my last period and the night before I had my ultrasound I was in the ER miscarrying again...I was devistated and my dr thought it could've been bcus my levels weren't really that high again with my progesterone...Dec 28,2008 I found out I was pregnant for a 3rd time and now I was SO nervous, but my Dr acted quickly with the bloodwork & ultrasound(I didn't see him til 2 weeks after I found out I was pregnant, but I acted quickly and took my prenatals and progesterone) so my levels came back excellent and I had an ultrasound scheduled bcus I didn't feel pregnant, but I saw my 6week,3day fetus' heartbeating! I was SO happy and felt relieved bcus I was finally having a baby! And I got ultrasound pictures and everything! But my dr was concerned bcus w/ my last period I should've been 8w,5d but my periods are never on track so we just figured I ovulated late and everything would be fine...of course Jan 29,2009 I was sitting in the ER miscarrying and passed 3 tissue clots...all I could do was cry and ask God "why me??" I know id be an excellent mother and I know God has a plan for everyone. I have 3 angels in heaven! It seems to be when you talk to some people about how you're feeling that have never been pregnant they don't understand that bond and connection you can have with something so tiny inside of you. It was the best feeling to know I was carrying basically a piece of me everywhere, but now that I've lost 3 babies I am going to have a bunch of tests done and then see a fertility dr! I hope everyone that has been through a miscarriage has the chance to have a healthy and successful pregnancy!

amanda

Our Angel Taylor James

I am a healthy 28 year old woman who doesn't smoke, does not drink or do drugs, and exercises regularly. I was on cloud nine, pregnant with my first child. I had a healthy pregnancy with absolutely no problems. Then, I went for my regular 32 week appointment. The nurse could not find the baby's heartbeat with the doppler, so the doctor tried and she couldn't hear one either. The doctor then had an ultrasound performed. Thus, confirming every mother’s worst nightmare, my baby had passed away. The doctor helped me call my husband who was at work and he met me at the hospital in disbelief. We couldn't believe but our perfect pregnancy and world had been turned upside down. I was induced that day and gave birth vaginally the next afternoon (1/27/09) to a beautiful baby boy, 5lbs, 18 inches long, who we named Taylor James. Our time with Taylor was too short and the experience still does not seem real. A few days later we buried our son Taylor at a small little family service. My husband and I have been each others supports system and he has been amazing. Our family and friends have offered so much love and support too. The majority of the time I am so strong but, it still hits me like a ton of bricks and mostly when I'm by myself. We are waiting for test results to determine the cause of Taylor's death. The doctor had found traces of fetal blood in with my blood, leading her to think there could have been a malfunction with the placenta. She seemed to think this could have sent Taylor into cardiac arrest. There may be a chance we won't find out what happened. However, I am hoping we are able to find out something at my next appointment.

Kelsey

Miscarriage at 6.5 weeks

I have had a week of pain and worry and then last night I lost a lot of blood, I am still in quite a lot of pain and I am sure that I am in the process of miscarrying. I had already seen the fetus on a scan, and it's heartbeat, and for me the blow of the loss is at the moment too much for me. I have fallen into a pit of despair and I don't know how to pull myself out at.

Emily

R.I.P my angel cristian

I was 31 weeeks pregnant when i lost my baby. it all started when i was 6 months i was seeing a maternal fetus specialist and the doctor started to tell me that there is something wrong with the babys heart and it was a boy by the way, so i had to follow up with the doctor every other day and every week to get ultrasounds so they can keep checking him, i was sent to the cardiologist for children so they can see what was going on, and theywere so stupid that they couldnt even find what was really wrong with his heart! so i kept on goin for ultradounds every week and every other day, until one day i woke up and did not feel him moving but i had an appt with the doc for an ultrasound that morning which was on nov. 13, 08 so i went and when i laid down and the the doc started to do the ultrasound he said there was no heartbeat and that i lost the baby, i just fell like the world was tumbling down on me ,because i was so excited to be a first time mom and was almost a little more than half way there and unfortunately i received the worst news ever. so i was induced the next day and delivered my baby naturally. so i creamated my baby and now i have his ashes. i also received the autopsy results and it said that he had an inflammation in his heart because it was not developing the way it should of and that the chromosomes were normal. i just wanted to know if any one suffered from anxiety and depression after their loss because i am now getting better thanks to god from my severe anxiety, panick attacks and depression that i went through after i lost my baby.

Ariana

Armed with information, I chose a D&C

I found out my fetus was no longer alive at my first ultrasound - what would have been 10 weeks. I had no symptoms of miscarriage, but I could tell immediately that the heart was not beating and the baby was not moving.

I went through several days of complete sadness. My face became so swollen from crying that I thought I was having an allergic reaction.

Then I began to research my options (my doctor seemed so awkward in dealing with my sadness. I had to ask her everything about next steps or she would only say "I'm so sorry". Doesn't this happen in 1 out of 4 pregnancies?! At a time like this, when you are not feeling confident, you want your health care provider to provide information that gives you reassurance. Anyway...)

I read a ton on the internet in the next week, and in some books I had on fertility. I now can recommend, "Our Bodies, Ourselves". It explained the D&E / D&C procedure in detail and the level of risk (which is equivalent to having a miscarriage). I choose to have a D&E. It was scheduled as an outpatient surgery. Everyone I dealt with at the hospital was so compassionate. I was nervous about being put to sleep, but it all went painlessly and fast. It took about 35 minutes. The surgeon was able to speak with me as soon as I woke up and let me know that there were no complications. I had very mild cramping and only the faintest trace of bleeding for about 4 days. It has now been almost one month and I think I have ovulated.

I am hopeful about a future pregnancy, but I will probably wait about 4 months to emotionally recover from this experience. My advice to anyone else in this situation is to talk to women you know. I have learned so much in the past month and made the transition from blaming myself for the loss of my pregnancy, to being strong and supportive of my own self and feeling healthy.

Much love and luck, Molly

Molly