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My happy begining ending with a tragic lost

I am only 17 years old and I was due to have a baby boy September 19, 2007. When I first out I was pregnant I was shocked but very happy that I was going to be a mom and I wanted this baby more than anything. I took very good care of the baby and myself. I had no complications at all. But when I got to be 36 weeks I noticed that my son wasn't kicking much as he used to. I thought it was normal since I was getting close to my due date.

When I went for my 37-week appointment I heard his heartbeat and everything was fine there was no sign of problems. But when I woke up Labor Day morning 4 days later fear went through my body. I knew some thing was not right. I called my doctor and told him I haven't felt the baby move for a long time. He told me to go the hospital. When I got there the nurses took me into a room and put the fetal monitor on my belly. Five minutes went by and their still was no sign of a heartbeat. I just thought maybe he's just lying weird and couldn't find it. Then my doctor brought the ultrasound machine in. I was so happy to see my baby boy on the screen but when I saw my doctor’s face he looked concerned. He looked at me and said, ''I'm sorry but there’s just no heartbeat.''

I looked at the screen seeing him thinking he must be wrong. He pointed out where the heart was and I stared waiting for it to move and for everything to be ok. But it never did. It took me 5 minutes to realize that my baby boy that I carried with me for 9 months was gone. My heart is broken. Guilt is forever with me, thinking I could have done something, I know I could have done something to save him.


Corey Anne

My 2nd

I was so excited to find out I was pregnant for the 2nd time. I went to the doctor and when she checked me, she asked if I was sure of my date. I said, 'yes'. She said it felt smaller. I was 6 weeks, she said 4 weeks. I was positive of my last period.

So, I had an ultrasound done and while in process, I asked the girl if we could hear the baby's heartbeat. She didn’t say anything, just kept checking. Then, she said that my baby was developing the way it should. So I went back to my doctor and he told me that I was pregnant, but it wasn't a normal pregnancy. It was called a 'blight ovum'. It's when the placenta forms but the baby doesn't. So I was still throwing up, feeling nauseous. He said my body would naturally miscarry.

He gave me the option of taking some pills to make it happen right away. I got them, but was undecided if I should take them. My mom is saying yes, my sister is saying no. My husband wasn't saying either or. He doesn't like to pressure me. In the end, we decided that I should take the pills. I started bleeding right away. I bled for about 1 week and half. I had little pain, plus I took painkillers that made me feel like I was drunk. I was very depressed for a long time. At my job, several co-workers were pregnant. I was so jealous. It was a very depressing experience in my life and I don't like to talk about it very much.


Carol

Pregnancy loss at week 19

I have been trying to conceive for over 2 years now, since I was 27 and so far all I have to show is 3 separate miscarriages. Two of them in the 8th and 10th week and the last one, yesterday, at 19 weeks. I was so convinced that this pregnancy would last when I got past the 1st trimester, especially since the statistics said only around 1% of miscarriages happen after the 1st trimester. I went with my husband to the get an ultrasound in the beginning of the 19th week having felt the baby move only a day before and he informed us that there was no heartbeat anymore.

It was crushing news, especially to my husband for whom this was the first ultrasound and the time when we would have seen the sex of the baby. I ended up having to console him and had no one to console me. I didn't know what to do and still feel like all these miscarriages are my fault. It is really hard for me to deal with especially since the spent the last 3 days in a hospital bed trying to induce labor. Now I feel I have finally started to grieve and I don’t know how to move on completely.

Of course my husband is hurt as well since he was right beside me when my little son came out, especially since he was the only one in the room at the time as the nurse stepped out to call the doctor to come. I couldn't even look at the dead baby since I was so disappointed and felt like it was my entire fault that I can't even keep a pregnancy to term. My husband is trying to make me move on but ends up saying all the wrong things right now although he doesn't mean it that way. I am really having trouble coping with everything. I would live to know the magical formula on how to get over this!


Nina

The lost of a young one...

The most horrible thing that has happen to me in my life, I would have to say is the day I lost my child, I was 15 years old, I couldn’t believe it I was pregnant at first I was so happy but I was also scared. I didn’t want to tell my mom but I had no choice, about my 6 month I found out that my baby had died. I couldn’t believe it; I really wanted to have my baby, when I told her father he was really upset.

Keyivah

Miscarriage and Alone

My husband just recently left for Iraq on a 15 yo 18-month tour. We have been married for 4 months, and I just moved from my comfort zone with all the people I know to a different city to be with him. After he left, I found out I was pregnant and was so excited. I unfortunately miscarried this week, and I just feel so alone and I'm worried that this happened because of the mother I would be.

Keyivah