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For all the little angels

The fact that you are falling pregnant is still a good sign, as I miscarried four years ago and just managed to fall pregnant again now.

I am now 17 weeks and going good; just have a little faith in yourself. I know it is not much fun to hear but when that right bub comes along it will fight to stay with you, instead of you fighting to keep it.


Lu

i feel so empty and alone

I am 38 years old and I lost my baby last week. I went to the doctors when I was 15wks and 4 days to have a comprehensive ultrasound and the dr was rude and he said I was too early for the ultrasound and to come back in 3 weeks.

When I went back I was 19 weeks pregnant and they could not find her heart beat. The dr said by the measurements my baby's heart stopped when I was about 16 weeks pregnant. I keep going over everything I did; what I did wrong. I had to be induced to have my little girl. I got to hold her and name her.

It’s so hard for me to let go. Everyone says move on, it’s been 11 days now, get over it. How do I get over Kaylee Ann when I loved her so much and still do? I hate being by myself. I just cry a lot. After I had my baby a nurse came in to ask, "where is your baby? I am here to do a hearing test on her". I just sat there numb and said my baby passed away. She just walked out of my room

I remember every moment in that hospital it keeps playing over and over in my mind.


lisa schrader

Miscarried twice

I became pregnant back in early October 2006 and had my first miscarriage two days before Thanksgiving 2006.

I became pregnant a second time in March 2007 and had my first appointment scheduled. I was so excited about being pregnant and was looking forward to the Dr's appointment. I never made it successfully pregnant to that appointment. I ended up miscarrying again. This just happened last night.

Even though I was a little over a month along- it's still hard on me. I just have sooo many questions as to why???? I don't understand. I'm very saddened by these two losses.

I'm worried that this could happen again.


Reina

all hope is gone

I wanted to update my story. I was waiting for symptoms of miscarriage to begin, after being told the drs could not find a heartbeat. It was the second time in a little over a year that I was having to endure this pain. I thought I was devastated last time!

I began to bleed 2 weeks after the scan that told me I was going to lose my baby. To begin with I still believed it was nothing more than a little spotting, how wrong I was! I began having contractions on 29th march. They got steadily worse throughout the day, by 4pm I was in agony (and scaring my children, due to the screaming). I phoned my dr who told me to go straight to the hospital where they would do a d&c.

My husband and I arrived at the hospital and were informed by a nurse that the dr would be as quick as possible but that it was very busy in the delivery ward! (Very tactful!) I lay there in agony; I was not offered any pain relief, had I been in labour I would have been given it as I walked through the door! The dr soon arrived and gave me an internal exam, he told us that the amniotic sac, complete with embryo had got stuck in the neck of my cervix, and he would need to remove it. He did so whilst causing me extreme agony.

It has been three weeks 5 days since and I am trying for the sake of my husband and my three beautiful children to focus on the positives. I spend half my time thinking about getting pregnant again, and the other half dreading getting pregnant again.

I am absolutely convinced that if I fall pregnant again it will end in miscarriage! I have no hope left.


caroline

Life doesn't always work out as planned

Thanks for sharing all of your stories - it really helps to read about others in the same boat!

When we decided to have a second child - my daughter was 6 months old. But I knew exactly when I wanted the baby - August or September of 2007. My daughter was born in August 2005 and it was perfect because I am a teacher and had the school year off.

When I found out that baby no.2 was coming this August I was ecstatic. My plan had worked perfectly and once I passed the 12-week mark I told everyone who would listen that I was expecting. My daughter started to rub my belly and say Hi Baby. In March I had some slight spotting and ignored it for a week or so - finally I decided to go to the hospital so I could put my mind at ease.

The doctor couldn't find a heartbeat. I was sent for an ultrasound and told the devastating news- the baby had been gone since 10 weeks - I was now 17 weeks. I was in shock - I had no warning signs other than a tiny bit of spotting. I had a D&C the next day.

It is now the end of April and not a day or minute goes by that I don't think about my baby. My closest friend just found out she is expecting her second and I am so jealous - I was supposed to be first! Everyone keeps saying don't worry you'll have another but I wanted this one - and since I lost the baby so late in my pregnancy I can't even have another one this year - Does it get easier???

All I can think about is getting pregnant yet I am terrified of having to go through this again.


J