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My first pregnancy started out all wrong. My husband and I had just gotten married and we found out we were pregnant 2 months later. I was sick as a dog. Smells, motion and even looking at people walking past made me want to throw up. Throughout this pregnancy, I lost 25-30 pounds. We went to our 1st ob visit at 3 months and they couldn't find a strong heartbeat.

I was referred to have a level 2 right away that same day. And the news was devastating... we were told that my precious baby Abel had a cystic hygroma that was preventing Abel from getting enough oxygen and growth. My doc asked me if I wanted to have selective abortion and I was deeply offended. I wanted to give this baby every chance that it could have. Well, unfortunately, at around 5 1/2 months during another level 2, I was told that the baby had passed. I was crying and crying. They had to induce labor for me. I was so depressed and emotional, that I didn't even look at my baby when he came out. That is one thing that I regret to this day.

We got pregnant again 3 months after that. I was sick as a dog again! I was so worried that I might have the same problems, but the doc was able to find the heartbeat right away. But alas! At 3 months, I was in a car accident. I went to the emergency room and they told me that everything was fine. And my next appointment was just 2 weeks away. When I went to my appt, they couldn't find a heartbeat. Level 2 again... was told that my baby passed about 2 weeks ago, around the time of the accident. I had a D&C with this one.

We decided that I was too traumatized at losing 2 babies in such a short period of time and we stopped trying. My weight shot up and was told that I was having prolactin level problems. Then all of a sudden, I stopped having my periods. I was checked for everything: thyroid, PCOS, etc. I had one MRI after another. I also found out that I have chronic Hepatitis B.

Two years after, we went to a fertility specialist ... by referral, and she refused to help me because of my Hep B. So, defeated and embarassed, I thought that people w/ Hep B couldn't be treated.

We asked our pastor and church members to pray for us ... 5 years later, I finally confessed to my doc what the specialist said. My doc got angry and said that was not true. She suggested that I see someone else. I decided to and they put me on clomid for 3 months. Nothing happened... they decided to check my hubby. He was ok. Then they decided that they were going to stop treatment. I was devastated and couldn't understand. I finally sat down with my ob and asked what my options were. He said IVF. Then I told him that I was reading up on blocked tubes. He said, “didn't we check you up on that already?” I was like, “No.” You see, my file was a couple hundred pages so it was very easy to miss.

I went in to have a dye test. It was very, very painful because the lady that did it messed up 3 times! I was crying and my blood pressure shot up. I had to stay a couple hours for them to monitor me. Well, I had blocked tubes.

My ob asked me if I wanted to have a laparoscopy to confirm the blocked tube. I said, yeah sure... I was so desperate. Sometimes they can correct the blocked tubes during surgery. In my case, they couldn’t. My tubes were completely messed up.
My ob told me that there was no chance whatsoever that I would ever be able to have a normal pregnancy.

I cried to my husband and told him that I was not a woman. Why do certain people who want babies so badly never get them, but people who don't keep having them? I was very angry, depressed, and had thoughts that my husband was going to leave me because I couldn't give him a baby.

My husband was very supportive and suggested that we look into IVF and if that didn't work, we could always adopt. My husband also told me to have faith and that God will answer our prayers. I was angry and told him that he's not a woman and he doesn't understand how it feels not to be able to conceive. He kept saying have faith, have faith. Finally I felt bad. And said, “sorry God, please forgive me. I know you will answer our prayers and remember us.”

2 months later I took a pregnancy test just because I take one every month.... I was PREGNANT! I was shocked! And scared. I thought that because my tubes were blocked, I couldn't get pregnant... then I thought I was having a tubal pregnancy. I called up my ob and told them. While crying, they said they wouldn't be able to do anything until I was in my 6th week. So finally the 6th week came and we had an ultrasound. Everything was where it should be. We were so happy! The doc asked me if I was having any symptoms yet. And I said not yet.

Surprise... this pregnancy has been so easy on me, I find it hard to believe that I am pregnant. I haven't been sick vomiting. I can eat anything. I haven't had the hormone emotional problems yet. It’s like I'm not even pregnant.

We had the level 2 ultrasound to make sure everything was OK. My husband made a bet that it was a girl because the baby moves so much... but surprise, it's a BOY.
I am now 22 weeks and grateful that I've made it this far. Please pray that I carry this baby to term. We already picked out a name Zachariah, meaning God has remembered.
Miracles do happen. Congrats to everyone!


claudia

LITTLE HEARTBEAT THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING

Right now I am 16 weeks pregnant. I found about me being pregnant pretty early, even before the ultrasound could detect anything. The test showed a very blurry second line, which of course was a pretty big shock for me and my boyfriend, as we were not planning on having a baby any sooner than 2 years later! That night and the next day was a nightmare, as I saw my boyfriend in real agony over the decision, and his uncertainty made me feel very unconfident too. But I wanted this child!!

The next day we went to a doctor, who tried to do ultrasound, but could not because it was too small, it was only 3 weeks according to my last menstrual day!!! We had to take time apart for about 10 days to decide for each of us what we really wanted, and even though we were pretty far along we still couldn’t get off the phone crying and trying to see what’s the best. Just like us, our families wanted different things. My family was more supportive, and telling us that a baby can be only for joy, and his family was suggesting termination, because otherwise he would ruin his life. He is only 22 so it’s understandable.

After that, we went through a very big fight... He decided for the termination, and me deciding to handle it alone if needed and which would lead our relationship to end... After a long week of hesitation and going back and forth I was tired of everything and thought maybe he is right... So I gave him a right to decide alone, and very next day we went to see a doctor... And there for the first time we heard tiny little life pounding inside of me...Our babies heartbeat...My boyfriend had a tear in his eyes and kept on repeating, its a life, its a life.... So instead of signing papers for abortion we signed for prenatal care checkup and headed home happy as ever.

And now we are 16 weeks, I feel my baby moving a week ago, and having a little lamp on my stomach in the mornings, such a great feeling!! But of course not everything was so appealing, I had to cope with morning sicknesses that there were moments when I regret about being pregnant, and now as second trimester started, I feel great! I feel more energetic if before even getting up in the mornings was hard, I don’t feel any more nausea, and the great thing is I start to realize that I’m actually going to have a baby!!
Next week we are going to have another check up and maybe we will be able to know if it’s a girl or a boy!!


Pujee

THANK YOU NESSI

Dear Nessi!

Thank you for letting me know!!!! Thank you for putting my mind to rest!
Good luck with your pregnancy! Hope everything goes well!

Best of luck!

Amelia

TO AMELIA

Dont worry about your size. Ididn't really start to get a belly till i was five and a half months pregnant. And once i started getting it, it just seemed to get bigger and bigger. I am thirty two weeks pregnant now and feel like i am as big as i can get but i know there is more to go. I have already gained twenty eight pounds altogether.

nessi

Further along then I thought

I took the home pregnancy test, and found out my husband and I are having a baby. I imediatly made a Dr. appointment.

I had the exam done, and my Dr. said "how far along do you think you are?" and I said "9 weeks??" She said, "you are much further then you think. You are done with your first trimester, you are 14 weeks!"

It turns out that you can have light periods when you are pregnant. I couldn't believe it. Whoa...there went a whole trimester and I didn't really know it! I was wondering why I was showing so "early", I thought it was because this is my second baby.

Lisa

Lisa