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Faithful tears

Where to start! I'm 38 now and have been trying for a baby for 6 years. My husband has a daughter from a previous marriage, and I truly feel he doesn't have the same need as I do. We've tried 3 IVFs. All failed. The last time he cried and asked me not to do it again. He only ever said he'd do 1 time in the first place, so for him to do it 3 times proved his love for me.

I'm a singer so these last few months since our last attempt (in Feb 06) I filled up my time producing an album. This last month though I cried when my period came. I've been in denial! The thought of never having a child fills me with dread. When I was younger and first told that I'd never conceive naturally, God sent me the message that I would. An Angel appeared to me and told me to read about Hannah. I did and always felt that I would have a child when it was the right time. I have a very strong faith in God, but I can't seem to stop crying! I recently went for my normal smear test and my gyno told me that although I never got a child from the IVF at least I don't have polycystic ovaries any more. So I have to count my blessings!

Miracles can happen. When I asked if it would be worth trying to clear my tubes, I was informed that it was risky and not advisable. With no hope of another IVF treatment I've now run out of options. All I have now is God’s promise to me. I'm crying as I type this. I have faith, but sometimes it's so hard to accept that maybe God's child for me is my husbands 13 year old daughter. I think it's time that I have to accept that I will never have a baby. And my dreams of the future may not be as I envisioned. I'll never give up hoping and I do have faith in God’s word, but I realize I have to be realistic. I know that all things are possible with God. So I will allow my feelings out now, and cry my heart out. I cry for the life I dreamt of and pray that God gives me the strength to go on. My tears are faithful tears from a woman whose heart is broken. God bless you all, never give up hope.


Alison Cachia

Cheering up

I've been married for 11 years and for some reason we can't get pregnant. Our tests did not show any problems. We are quite busy, traveling a lot, and I went back to college, so I didn't feel any special pressure to have a baby. BUt sometimes I think it would be nice to have one. And when I start thinking about it too much, about my AF- is it coming or not coming, and hoping that it wouldn't come- I get a bit depressed, because we are not in a position of going for IUI or other treatments. But when I'm really sad,it happens that my husband says something really stupid, or acts like a real jerk- so- I know it's weird- but it cheers me up instantly. It's like, that maybe God knows what he does when he did not have us any kids- because my husband is a jerk and such a redneck sometimes!!!!!! Of course, he's not that bad. I mean, he just have these "moments"....But it really helps. I'm getting angry at him and forget about not having a baby....

Mary

deep Sadness

My husband and I are trying to have a baby for almost 4 years, we got married late. We have done every test in the world and the diagnosis was unexplained infertility due to advanced age. I have regular period ,I had two miscarriages on early pregnancy. This month I have done IUI and I have one more week to do the pregnancy test.Tthis will be my last chance and my last hope, having a baby and being a Mom was my everyday dream. I have to admit if I do not get pregnant this month I will lose all my hope ,Please pray for me . It is the hardest diagnsis ever to be diagnose with infertility.I pray that nobosy have to go through this problem , Good luck to you all.

Pari

let's all pray for each other

I HAVE THREE BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN..AGES 15, 6 AND 4 WHOM I RAISED ON MY OWN. I FINALLY FOUND MY "LIFE PARTNER" AND MARRIED THIS PAST MAY. MY HUSBAND IS SIGNIFICANTLY YOUNGER THAN I SO CONCEIVING A CHILD WITH HIM SEEMED LIKE A SIMPLE THING. MUCH TO MY SURPRISE, MONTH AFTER MONTH WENT BY AND NOTHING HAPPENED. WE DECIDED TO HAVE A SEMEN ANALYSIS TO CHECK THINGS OUT WITH HIM AND MUCH TO OUR SURPRISE, HIS SPERM COUNT WAS ON THE LOW SIDE AND THE MOTILITY AND VIABILITY AND MORPHOLOGY WERE NOT GOOD. SO WE WENT TO AN INFERTILITY DOCTOR WHO DID OUR FIRST IUI AND A COUPLE DAYS AGO, I STARTED MY MONTHLY CYCLE. IT IS REALLY FRUSTRATING AS IT SEEMS LIKE WE ARE LIVING AROUND MY "CYCLE" EVERY MONTH. I THOUGHT IT WOULD FINALLY BE OVER. I HONESTLY DONT KNOW WHY THINGS HAPPEN AS THEY DO BUT PLEASE PRAY FOR US. AND I WILL BE PRAYING FOR ALL OF YOU WHO I HAVE READ ABOUT TONIGHT AND GOD WILLING, WE WILL ALL BE BLESSED WITH GODS GREATEST GIFT.
SINCERELY,
HANNAH

hannah fabian

To Under Cover Want-to-be-Mom

I just wanted you to know that God loves you no matter what you've done in the past. If you made mistakes, just repent and ask His forgiveness and it is yours! God is a God of mercy and loves us unconditionally. Believe in the goodness of God! Just as our natural parents love us and they don't want to see harm come to us even when we make mistakes, our heavenly Father feels the same way. Forgive your self and accept God's forgiveness. May God's blessings be with you and your babies to come.

KO