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good bye my darling

I’m back again. I lost my baby Pip last December 06 at 12weeks and I got pregnant again 8week later. I found out on the 11.3 07 I was about 4weeks.

Well I went to see my midwife at 6weeks and I had a scan on 20.4.07. I was 9.3weeks and that was when I found out I missed miscarried again. The baby passed away at 8weeks.

It all came back to me again; the feeling it is the worst feeling ever 4 a women to feel. I go in 4 an erpc 2moz 23.4 all I wont is my babies back. I know they are looking down at me and their daddy and I know that they no that their mummy and daddy love them so much and as long as we shell live.

My story about my last darling baby is under Pip xxxxxx

Good bye my babies all was in my heart I will always love you x x x


sarah

Scream of frustration!!!!!

I am angry. I am healthy! I am 27 years old and I have a beautiful 5 year old daughter...I am very blessed...and I am miscarrying my daughters little sibling.

I feel cheated and robbed and angry. Maybe I'm selfish...I have a wonderful daughter and not so many are lucky. But I am still very, very angry. I went for my first ultrasound on Easter Monday...they were concerned but didn't reveal anything...my doctor the next day told me there wasn't a heartbeat detected...but not to be alarmed "the baby could be younger then we expect." He wanted another ultrasound…so I went yesterday...

Two days ago I started bleeding and cramping, but nothing severe.... yesterday they told me the pregnancy had failed. So that leaves me robbed of my new baby, my husband robbed of fathering along with me, his daughter robbed of another sibling and my daughter robbed of being a big sister for the first time ever. I am so very hurt and confused at this unfair situation.

I don't accept all the cliché’s of what’s meant to be, and it's for the best... you have a family you get pregnant to create a family or build a family it shouldn't be taken from anyone…Taking my baby isn't for the best.

I hope not everyone is as bitter as I am...I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Hopefully this never gets read because there is no need for comfort when there isn't a tragedy.

Keep your chin up...I am trying to...thanks for letting me blow off steam...this is my scream of frustration.


Tianna

Today, I know.

Yesterday, 20 April, 2007, I began bleeding in the morning, with cramps. I had been experiencing cramps since I found out I was pregnant, just this week (17 April, 2007), but nothing like what appeared yesterday morning. We called our OB/GYN and he said not to worry and to use a prescribed suppository to stop the cramping; later I was seen by a local Gen. Practitioner and he confirmed that I was beginning to miscarry. Here in Mexico it is assumed that the miscarriage is due to an infection -- so I was prescribed antibiotics and the like. But, this is in an effort by them to maintain the pregnancy.

Yesterday morning, my husband kissed my belly and said "goodbye" to Jr., but I had no idea how permanent that "goodbye" would be. I know today that the process is complete -- no more cramping, much less blood, and no pregnancy symptoms.

Until the miscarriage is confirmed by blood work (Monday), the physicians won't be aware, but I am. My husband wants to wait for the result to mourn, but I've already begun.

This makes me so sick to my stomach to write this...I feel empty, even though I was just 5 weeks. But this was my first pregnancy; I had already bought maternity cloths and unisex baby layettes, so I was so sure of a positive outcome.

Instead, I mourn for this baby that never graced my life. I feel resentful to baby-toting moms. And just so sad. And my husband still has hope...

Kristina

missed miscarriage or a menstrual period?

It was 4/3/07 that I was expecting my period but it didn’t come. That time my husband and I went to a summer outing. 4/5/07 I had a small blood spot on my undies and I thought I was having a period, so I put a napkin and we walked around all day, but every time I get pee I always see no blood on my napkin till the days past.

4/8/07 I take home pt twice and I got both positive results. To make sure, I went to the hospital the other day and I got the same result. 4-10-07 we went to my ob/gyn and she scans me, and she said it’s too early to see the baby. And she also said that I needed to re-scan after two weeks not just to see the baby but also to make sure that it is not ectopic pregnancy.

The next day, I had spot, so I called up my dr and she gave me medicine to make the baby intact. I filed leave in my work so that I can rest and survive the baby. But still spotting is still there, but I do not worry because I am keeping my finger crossed that nothing will happen to my baby.

4/21/07 I am not comfortable as if like there is something going outside in my vagina, and when I went to the bathroom and make a pee, there were 4 pieces of large blood drop on the floor, I was keeping my faith that it is not my baby. My husband pick up those clot and put into a stool and when my ob/gyn saw that clot, even she didn’t know what it was. So she asked me to have another scan, and I say some other time because I am not feeling well that time, I didn’t feel any cramps or whatsoever, just wanted to make a rest and I didn’t want to face the fact that its my baby or what I had experienced before the medium blood drop in my napkin, but I can say it’s really a blood.

But this one, it’s very different into menstrual blood. But I doesn’t see any fetus or what it’s a tissue and I begin to asked myself, am I really got pregnant or having miscarriage or having a menstrual period. I don’t want to get panic although I am starting. My husband is the one who's always there to pamper me and say everything’s going to be all right, though I am out of my faith now that my baby is gone. This coming Monday 4-23-07 will be the most memorable day of my life... this day, I will know what is really happening. I am clueless.

My advice, just keep your faith into the Lord. Whatever happen in me, its God's will. It is happening in me because God had a reason, a better reason.

God bless to all... and God bless me.


peachy

Missed Miscarriage

We had got to 12 weeks and I was having my first scan. I was so excited. I had reached 12 weeks and I couldn't wait to see the baby, but there was worry on the midwife's face. "I'm sorry" she said "but we can't find a heartbeat". Our world crumbled.

I decided to wait to miscarry naturally, but as I had been carrying the baby for 4 weeks without a heartbeat, this became difficult to deal with. 3 days later I booked myself an ERPC. I bled for 3 days after, and did everything I could to avoid going to the toilet. I was too scared to see the blood, a constant reminder that my baby was no longer inside. Eventually it got quite painful to wee and I was given antibiotics for a urinary tract infection.

It's 2 weeks later and I'm up and down. I'm now at the stage where I feel resentful, and jealous of other pregnant women. I hate feeling this way. I tell myself I have to deal with each situation thrown at me, or I'll never get through this. I'm desperate to start trying for another baby as soon as possible, but can only do what my body allows. At the same time, I worry about the same thing happening all over again. Life works in mysterious ways. We just have to try and work through it.

My best advice would be to read up about it as much as you can, and talk to others who have had a miscarriage before. You just need reassurance that you are normal and you're not alone.


Michelle