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Running out of hope.

My husband and I have been together since we were in JR High School. I became sexually active at 18yrs old and we haven’t used protection since. I have never been pregnant; not even a scare. So I went to my doctor and found out I have endometriosis.

I have had two HCG's and two Laparoscopies. I have been on clomid and still nothing. I feel all we have left is in-vitro and I am afraid we will try and nothing. Sometimes I feel it’s hopeless.

We really want a child and it's sad because we feel it’s so close to happening but when you get that negative test you feel a little but of hope is taken away.


Monique

Hopeful

My name is Stephanie, My husband and I were very, very blessed to bring our son into the world. He is four years old. We started out very young but by having him in our lives has been the greatest thing that has happened to us.

My husband and I have always wanted to have at least two kids, and because we were so young when we had our son (19) I really wanted to enjoy motherhood with just my little one. Then as we got a little bit older and wiser to parent hood we both agreed it was time to add to the family. We tried for about a four months. All along I had this awful back pain that would just not go away.

I did a lot of research and every thing I came upon said something about endometriosis. I had never heard of it before. I read on about it and to be very honest it scared me. So I reassured my self and directed my thoughts elsewhere to forget about it. It must have been a sign because for the next couple of weeks the word endometriosis was popping up everywhere, books magazines and through just plain conversation. So I made the trip to the doctor to explain my pain. The doctor did say I show good possible signs of having endometriosis. So he told me to keep trying to conceive and if we haven’t become pregnant in four more months to come back.

Well we gave it a year exactly then I went back because I finally got pregnant. Yes I took 7 pregnancy tests because I just couldn’t convince myself that it was true. I know that having endometriosis causes infertility and pain, yet I can deal with pain but not the infertility part. So as my husband and I got excited we began to tell close people in the family the good news. I immediately made a Dr. appointment. With all of this excitement I can’t really explain it but something didn’t feel right about it.

I wasn’t having pain or unusual symptoms of signs of problems I just didn’t feel right about it. Then one week after I found out I was pregnant; little minor aches started to set in. Barely noticeable but when your pregnant every thing is noticeable. So I made a trip to the doctor’s office that next morning, and started spotting. “Well stephanie, it looks as of you are having a miscarriage, so Hcg test for the next four days and I will see you at the end of the week”. We were in silence because our dreams we worked so hard for so long came true and then shattered just like that.

So I recouped and went in for my follow up one week later after the conformation of a miscarriage that Friday and talked things over with my doctor. Before I finish my story I just want to say Please trust your instincts ladies. My pregnancy symptoms never went away, yes I was still pregnant but not a successful one. I proceeded to ask when were all the pregnancy symptoms going to go away. He says they should have passed already and sent me in for a second sonogram to find out that I had a tubal pregnancy all along and four hours later I was in surgery.

It is very emotional when you want to give life and just cant’ and it’s beyond your control. I was then started on the Lupron shot for the treatment of endometriosis hoping I can somehow increase my chances of conceiving just to find out my insurance doesn't cover the second shot so now I am back to square one.

Never lose hope and always be grateful for what you have. When God if God is ready to add to your family he will. Keep your spirits hopeful and never give up.


Stephanie

trying to conceive

My husband and I have been trying on our own to have a baby for about a year and a half, and now we are seeing a fertility doctor. I am going on my third cycle; one cycle with clomid/natural cause the clomid gave me a bad reaction. I was just monitored and then given an injection to release my eggs and nothing, no baby. Then one cycle of injections and IUI and now nothing again.

Now they want to up my meds and try another cycle of injections with IUI. I’m just not sure if I want to do it again it is so stressful and draining. This is my second marriage and I have a 7 year old from my first and no problems it was a surprise actually and my husband now is so anxious to have a baby and I am too but can’t stand the fact that we can not do it on our own. So frustrating.

I’m just not sure what to do if I should try another cycle or take a break. It’s really getting to both of us, and stressing our relationship at the same time. I just don’t understand what’s going on. He was tested and is fine and I was tested and am fine.

I am lost and confused.

Thank you.


GEANINE

we want so bad to have a baby.

I had a tubal reversal; my dr saved one tube. My husband has 0 sperm count, so we are using a sperm donor.

I truly regret ever having my tubes tied. I have one son and I thank GOD for him. But I would love to have one or more babies.

My son is 13 years old.


dallas peck

Hope

I am 26 years old. I have been married for almost four years now. My husband and I started trying in August of 2005. I got off of the pill and two months later I was pregnant...I was so happy and so was he.

At seven weeks I miscarried. The doctor didn't know why and said it is common in first time pregnancies. I had irregular cycles and had to be put on provera to try to regulate them. That went on for a while and then in August 2006 I went on clomid. I started at 50mg and ended up at 150mg with progesterone levels of over 40...still nothing...I got off of it after six cycles.

I had all of the fertility tests done and the doc found that I lacked progesterone in the post ovulation time. I couldn't hold a fertilized egg because my uterine walls were not maturing at the right speed. So back on clomid and doing ok. I am on day three now and will be getting IUI when I ovulate.

I am praying and praying that this will be the answer to this long journey. I pray for all of us.


Susanne