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Wishful Thinking, Perimenopause or Pregnancy?

Well, I never wanted to have a baby before, so I was always very diligent about birth control. Now, at the age of 41 I met the love of my life. He isn't as keen on having kids as I am, so we have agreed not to go the fertility specialist route. But we aren't using any birth control at all, so pregnancy is a possibility, though less likely at my age.

I guess I must really want to have a baby, because I have had several wishful thinking episodes, where I would convince myself that PMS symptoms were pregnancy symptoms. You know the drill: Look in the mirror, breasts look bigger, period a few days late, feeling bloated...oh I must be pregnant! NOT! I wasted so many home pregnancy tests. Even my doctor was convinced when I skipped a period. She kept on insisting on giving me pregnancy tests, but nothing.

Anyway, my body has been acting upover the last year. My breasts have gained almost 2 full cup sizes without an accompanying weight gain. Again the blasted pregnancy tests. A battery of tests. Again nothing. I'm perfectly healthy, my breasts are just getting bigger. What's going on? I don't know.

Now I have all the symptoms of a pregnancy again, in fact more than I've ever had before, which is why I'm here. Nausea, headaches, increase in body temp (I'm usually so cold), more cerv. fluids, breasts getting even bigger, late period (by a week), change in taste (some things just taste sour and I can't stand greasy food in the morning), and smell, extreme heartburn, waking up in the night to pee.

However, I'm not going to take another pregnancy test. I'm tired of being disappointed. At my age all those symptoms could be due to the hormonal shifts of perimenopause too (except for the breasts growing thing, but they've been doing that anyway). I guess I'll just wait and see if the pregnancy symptoms intensify.

If it does happen, it would be God's miracle for sure. I will be so happy.

Beki

Sadness and Hope

I am 36 and already have two wonderful children and my husband has two from his previous marriage, so things seem pretty fine and there is no desperate need for either of us to have another baby. Yet, i know we would both want another baby, so we are not using contraception and rely on God. And this month I thought I was pregnant - had all the symptoms, feeling tired, painful and heavy breasts, dizzy, reacting to smells, morning sickness...I knew I was pregnant. Then I had a car accident. A small one, nothing really happened, a sideswipe, but it was my first ever accident and I got very badly scared that day, cried a lot...A couple of days later I took a pregnancy test at home, and it was faintly positive. I thought, well, it´s five days before my period is due, so of course the level of the hormones is low, but it was definitely a line. Then my period failed to arrive. But my feeling changed, I stopped feeling pregnant somehow. I told myself I would take another test if my period failed to arrive for another three days at least. And then yesterday night I started bleeding - not implantation bleeding, real heavy bleeding, with clots of dark and bright red blood (sorry for the gory details). That was such a dispappointment, such pain...I know it must have been the so called "chemical pregnancy", but it does not hurt less. My husband was wonderful and very supportive and surely, a baby is not a must, everything is God´s will. But I want to have hope and I wish all the women out here who want a baby have hope, too.

God bless.

A.

still trying

Well i'm 27years old in i'm still trying to get pregnancy. Me and my husband been married for 7years now. And nothing still happen. It been very hard on us. I have pregnancy symptoms all the time. Well right now i feel that i'm pregnancy. Because my breasts been pain in them. And also i been eating up everything i just can't get enough. My skin on my face have change also. But i hope and pray that this time i'm pregnancy.

patricia

Anxious

My boyfriend and I decided a couple months ago that we wanted to have a baby. I just wanted to marry him, lol! To find out he wanted a baby was a thrill and I was more than happy to attempt to concieve.
I have been married before to my high school sweetheart and we'd try every chance... I had a history of irregular periods, painful periods...... I had a colposcopy May 06 after my first abnormal pap with a biopsy...
July 06.... My boyfriend left for pre deployment work up's and about three days after he left I noticed I had more discharge than usual. I'd have to run to the bathroom thinking I was going to start my period only to clean up a gush of clear, mucousy fluid... It's a daily thing just about. If there isn't that one gush, it's still wet in there which is uncommon even when I'm about to start or half way through the cycle.... Then I started to experience cramping and a sharp pain every so often on my left side. The pain would come and go. It would start dull, get intense and fade out. I experienced this on my left side, my right side a couple times, in the middle of my abdomen and lower back... My breast also became tender around the time the "unusual wettness" started.
I figured I was about to start my period considering for the past few months I have started mid month... But what is up with the wetnness?? And the daily pain in the side/ abdomen...
Oh... June 06 I had 2 periods...... (1) on the 18th... for 4 days... (2) on the 27th for about 5 days and it was very heavy compared to my last one a week ago. I had not had that happen in mny years.....
I took a hpt last Thursday.. It was negative.... I took a blood test @ the clinic I worked at on the day I was "supposed" to start my period (17 Jul) negative.... Seriously frustrated... And upset.
The on line pregnancy tests say I'm about 4 weeks. I feel the cramping, the pain on my side, the wettness, and fatigued. Sometimes I want to puke, but I haven't just get nauseated and a headache here and there... So whats the deal??? Next Friday I will do another blood test... I just want to have a baby with the love of my life, like all the reat of us out there..... :( Sniffles......
~ Anxious in Jacksonville

Jessica

What is up?

I was hungry all the time, not my usual. I was constantly running to the bathroom all day it seemed and waking up at least 4-5 times per night for bathroom calls. It seemed like I have the never ending headache. My breasts just hurt. I felt like my stomach was doing flip flops when I laid down at night. The final clue - my stomach just popped out and I had been doing stomach exercises. I figured, let me go get a pregnancy test and check this out since I was late by 3 days. Lo and behold a positive sign.

Good luck to all.

Kim