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We've been trying for our third for about 7 months now, considering we never had to try before this is very frusterating, we have 2 children, I got the mirena to space them out, our kids are only 15 months apart, si I got it removed after 2.5 yrs, and so we tried, we finally get pregnant, my boobs hurt, I'm crampy, I'm cutting caffeine out, eating right, lookin at baby stuff online, already got a blanket and socks as a gift, to take up bleeding, at first like a period but now very heavy and painful. I'm miscarrying right now, devastated, feel alone, lost, I don't want to talk, just want to cry alone. I'm afraid to do this again, I want a baby, so much, I can't bear to lose another...neither can my husband

Laura

Sariya

When I first found out that I was expecting I was totally excited. I loved being pregnant and talking to the little life that was growing inside of me. I thought we would have a boy this time and when we were told it was a girl I embraced the thought of having two little princesses in the house. I made sure that I did not stress or worry and tried to eat right. All the clothes and stuff we began to buy. And on August 28, 2009 all of the dreams and hope were shattered with tears and pain. I was not really feeling well the day before and took it easy. I called the on-call doctor because deep in my heart I felt that something was wrong, but never had I expected the news we heard. Our little princess had slipped away from us. On this day it seemed my whole world ended when we were told she had died. So on this day Sariya Gooden was born and died. She was a beautiful baby and looked so peaceful. She looked just like her dad and had all my hair. Since this day the home we live in seems to be filled with pain and suffering. All the things we expected and were looking forward to are gone.

Since this experience I truly have learned that God knows best. I would ask myself everyday what could I have done to be in this position. Is there anything I could have done differently, and still no answers. Some days I feel alone and that no one can truly understand my pain. My husband struggles it seems just to keep his head up and be strong for me. And I ask God why did this happen and what was his plan. He tells me this is to make me stronger and that he took her for a reason. She is his angel now and in a better place. And I can admit that some days I do not accept this very well. I wanted her so bad but God needed her more.

Shemekia Gooden

strong intuition

I never thought I could get pregnant. Im 34 and have been sexually active for 18 years, without pregnancy. I got married last year to a wonderful man and he wanted to have kids. This summer I got sick, or so I thought. I couldnt eat without burping and bloating. So, I did a master cleanse. Three weeks later I noticed signs of pregnancy. The miraculous had happened, we were expecting. You cant control the excitement, it just happens naturally. For 7 weeks we started to revolve our lives around this new being. Friends gave me baby things they didnt need. We dreamed of names and lives for the child. Then, all of the sudden I lost my symptoms. I just thought I had reached the stage where you feel better. At the first ultrasound our fears were made real...I had lost the baby. As soon as I found out for sure, my body responded by starting to bleed. I had a feeling the day of the ultrasound that the baby was dead. God gave me a warning inside. The grief comes in waves. When I see a baby or talk to someone who knew about ours, it is hardest. Music makes me cry for no reason. I know it happened for a good reason. I just hope that life will go on for my husband and I. He wants to try again soon. I am not ready yet. Healing takes time.

Katie

1 misscarriage, 3 missed misscarriages.

Hi all,

I just turned 39. I have 2 beautiful girls. the oldest just turned 10 and the youngest is 7. In 2006 I was unexpectedly pregnant. A couple of weeks later, it ended in a miscarriage. I was devastated but accepted the situation because it was my first time. In 2008, I was ready for an addition to my family. I got pregnant. Was so excited, especially as I could follow the development of the embreyo week by week on the internet. Everyday as I got out of bed, the first thing was to turn on the computer to see my connect with the joy that was in me. But my first ultrasound at 9 weeks gave no heartbeat and showed that the bb had stopped growing at 7weeks. Needless to say I was really devastated. I wanted to get pregnant again immediately and my husby said we should wait for atleast 6months. We waited, and April of 2009 I got pregnant again. After 8 weeks another missed miscarriage. The pain is beyong words. In august of 2009, I got pregnant again. I'm supposed to be 6/4 today. But my visit to the gynacologist today showed no heartbeat. She said the size of the embreyo is that of a 5weeks old which means it stopped growing at 5weeks. I have an appointment with her next week to see if maybe we had miscaculated the pregnancy but I'm not putting my trust in to it. I'm really lost for works, to imagine that this is occured to me again. When will I ever be able to have another safe pregnancy again? Age is really catching up with me. Just one of those sad days.

Irene

hurt,angery,confused the love i lost

I'm doing this story over because I dident get to say everything I was feeling the 1st time around so herr it goes.My name is michelle I'm 25 years old my husband and I just got married on march 28,2009 once we got married I was ready to start a family so u could emagin the joy I felt when I found out I was pregnant on august 8,2009, We told, Well he told his family about our joy but his nana and his mother there reaction to me was the worst the frist thing thay said out there mouth was why now at that point I know thay did not want me to be pregnant so I tried to forget about it and move on with my excitement every one in our life other then them was so happy,august 18,2009 I woke up and i was bleeding by august 25,2009 I found out that I was having miscarriage the very thing I wanted so much dreamed about asked god for was riped away from me before I could enjoy everything about being pregnant the doctors did not want to tell me so my husband had to brake the news to me I knew what was happing but to here it from my husbands mouth made it so real. I was hurt,angrey,confused could not understand why god would give me this blessing and take it away just like that like a crule joke I know I should not question why god does the thing he does but that's so hard when I have so many questions.my sister-in law is pregnant she's do january and I was do in march so I'm trying to be happy for her but is so hard.I GUESS ONE DAY WE WILL GET OUR LITTLE BABYS BUT UNTELL THEN WE HAVE TO KEEP OUR HEAD UP AND HAVE FATH BECAUSE IF WE DONT WHO WILL DO IT FOR US.KEEP TRYING GOOD LUCK AND GOD BLESS.

michelle