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love an lost

Hi.. I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant my boyfriend was 21 an he was as sweet as he could be.. He always said he wanted a baby an a family but I should have known something was up when he was still living with his parents. I was on birth control an he never wore condoms because he thought they were uncomftable. So one night in the back of his truck we did the deed. 1 month an 20$ later, I'm pregnant. I was so anxious I didn't know what to do. The next day he suprised me by pickin me up after school. That's when I told him. He pulled over an was in shock. He said he's support me. But he just started ignoring me. I was about 4 months along when he finally came around an picked me up to go look at baby stuff. On the way to the store he was to busy texting to pay attention to the road an he wound up hitting a 18 wheeler. I lost the baby in that accident. When I got outta the hospital he was with his ex an told me it was for the best we lost the baby an shouldn't see eachother again. Come to find out he was texting his ex when we ran that wreck. I will always remember that no matter how many times some one says they love you it doesn't mean its true... That's my story.

My baby boy.

I was 15 when i fell pregnant, but it isn't your typical story, i was raped soon after my 15th birthday. I thought nothing of pregnancy as i was so upset and scared after the incident. I kept in my room for weeks, scared of the world. Only very close family and my best friend could see me. I repeatingly had nightmares, it was awful. I cried all the time, terrified to go outside incase it happened again. Then one morning i ran to the bathroom and threw up. My mother was by my side and held my hair back, soothing me. We went straight to my doctor who told me i was expecting. I didn't know what to think, this monster had made me pregnant. But i did not for 1 moment hate my baby. My child had done nothing wrong. My family sat around and discussed all options. There was no way i could abort my baby or let someone else raise it. I was going to be a mum, at 15. I found out i was having a baby boy and decided to name him Jack. We set up the nursery in my room, my mum worked from home so she would always be there to help me with him, My pregnancy was rough as i was only young, people at school weren't supportive. I was called a slut, slag, whore. Everyone turned against me, even my best friend. They said i deserved to be raped and it was my fault. But i still went to school every day as i knew i needed the education to give my son the future he deserved. I went to school unitl 38 weeks. Then one day my waters broke.
After 7 hours of labour, my baby boy Jack Raymond was born without a heartbeat. The doctors could not do anything to save him. He was gone. I was able to hold my little angel until it was time to say goodbye. I gave him the perfect send off.
I'll never forgot my baby, and i hope everything i do from now on makes him proud.
I'm now 18 and studying in college. I have a loving boyfriend who understands everything and helped me to grieve my baby. We're taking things slow as i feel this was my opportunity to give myself and any future children an amazing life.

Rest In Paradise Jack, mummy loves you forever.
Thank you for reading
x

Catherine

lLilenlu

Lilenlu was the name I´ve chosen for my baby...but last wednesday I suffered a pregnancy loss..I only had six weeks being pregnant...however those weeks were the best!! I felt so happy!!!!! And everybody was happy for me...My husband and I were making plans...Now we feel just emptiness...I´m looking for help in this sites, reading, talking, writing about my case...it makes me feel better...We are lucky in having eachother!!

gaby

17 and lost

My name is Marissa. I am 17 years old. Recently I had found out that I was pregnant. My boyfriend of 3 years and I were thrilled believe it or not. We have wanted a baby for so long. The only part we were worried about was telling my dad who turned out to be thrilled as well.
I know most parents of a teen should be worried that there child is having a baby so young, but the difference is that I am already raising my older sister's little boy. Besides the fact that I have always dreamed of being a mom.
Three days after finding out and telling everyone, I started to bleed. My boyfriend and I went to the emergency room. I got put on bedrest after they ran a bunch of test. All the doctors told me was to drink a lot of water and stay relaxed. Yeah, like that's possibly? So I tried my best thinking it would save my baby.
In the end though there was really nothing I could do to help the baby survive that. I lost my job and everything. To this day I wish there was something someone could say to make it all better, but there isn't and there won't ever be. The only thing that will help is honestly knowing that your baby wasn't healthy enough to survive. There is always a reason for it. Most times you won't find out why, but just know your baby is in a better place and continue to love he/she. No matter what they will always be your little angel.

Marissa

too sad to be true

hi,

its good to find this site,am janefrance am 26yrs oldi have pregnant once and thats where i went trough the worst times in life.
my pregnancy trimesters were all fine,no major complications were noted.
i reached 40 weeks and labor hadn't come
i one day lost my the baby movement only to be told he passed away
and that my hbp was high
i could not accept or understand this
but the ultra sound confirmed it all
i was induced labour immediately
i got open but the baby was too big to come out
afer a whole night being in labor i was weak,fatigued and could not do anything more
i was taken to theater for a Cesarian and the baby was 4kg ,male,beatiful but dead
this was very painful but it was the truth
he was buried in my absence since i was in hospital,by my faamily and friends
everone who was in waiting to hold the baby could call me only to receive the sad news
i was afraid of everyone
i felt guilty and wished i had removeed him earlier before the
i did not want to be aorund anyone
and i did not want to explain or answer questions
i felt a lesser woman
i disengaged myself from the mother i knew
i felt dissapointed and that i was unable to proove to the whole world i can be a mother
healing is still in progress
i use to cry very oftenly
but i ave reduced crying
i wished God could explined to me his reason behind this and why i had to carry him for 40 weeks and still take him
but i left everything to God and just believe that once i heal GOD WILL GRANT ME ANOTHER BABY.
who will be mine until my old age

janefrance