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loss at 5 weeks, exactly

I found out that I was pregnant using an HPT, exactly 28 days into the cycle. I wasn't sure whether I should believe it, as this was my first time. My husband and I kept our fingers crossed. I tested again 36 hours later, and then again after 36 hours more. Beyond doubt, I was pregnant. Initially, we wanted to keep it to ourselves. But this was such a happy occurrence, that we wanted to share it with our nearest family.

Just 3 days into my "known pregnancy", I heard about the death of a young man, a friend's family member. I was very upset for his parents, knowing how devastated I would be if that were to happen to the tiny little life inside me.

Fear began. It just sounded too good to be true that it would be a live and full pregnancy and birth. Exactly at 5 weeks, I tossed around in bed all night, woke up early to see spotting and a negative HPT. Then, bleeding, and it was all gone... even before my first scheduled pregnancy appointment.

This was 2 days ago. I know it isn't her fault, I know I want her pregnancy to be wonderful and I know that I want mother and child tp have a long and fruitful relationship; but right now, I really, truly hate someone I know who has the same LMP... I read that this is normal.

I am still crying for no apparent reason. Something akin to postpartum depression because the hormone levels crashing down? I don't know. If it is chromosomal abnormality that caused the miscarriage, why in the world should imperfect combinations even get fertilized??!! I have no answers. Only questions.

My husband has been nothing but supportive of my erratic ways despite the fact that he is just as devastated by the loss. I cannot help seeing him as the enemy just a tiny bit, however. I told him so.

I was told to wait for at least on normal period, whatever that is supposed to mean, to begin trying to conceive again.

Fingers crossed.

sang vi

My most Sadness

Hello, I don't know how to describe my so large and long sadness, we was waiting him for 7 beautiful months and suddenly his little heart stopped. No reasons even medical ones are clear at this moment, everything was going well, and with no reason my so beautiful and charm baby had dead, this happened one month ago, nothing makes me feel better, but I am carrying on daily with the help of my husband that is experiencing the same as me with no light shinning for us. I beg our Lord a little of consideration even no explanation to understand.

Ixell

the worst day of my life

Yesterday was the worst day of our lives.... I was ready to listen my baby¨s heart, when the doctor told me the fatal notice... today they make me a small surgery, and I´m trying to find somethingo or someone that can help us, because we feel terrible... the most important is that we are toghether, finally It was our little baby. ( 11 pregnancy weeks)

beatriz

Bleeding

After trying to conceive for over a year we were delighted to discover I was pregnant in February. We wanted to keep it quiet until 12 weeks...I had a strange feeling something might go wrong. After a relaxing weekend break I noticed some dark thick discharge, read online that this was quite normal so didn't think much of it. Later that day i had a spot of bright red blood, so called my GP who arranged an early pregnancy scan for the next day. I had no other bleeding so felt reasured that my baby might be alright and went along for the scan. I was 6wks and 5days but baby was to small to see if ok so they told me to return in 2 weeks for an answer. After returning home i didn't know what to think...was my baby gone? I tried to stay positive and get on with running after my 3 year old but with a huge cloud hovering over me. 4 days after the scan i started to have the dark discharge again, it stayed the same for a few days then turned to period like bleeding. I had a few clots over the week and a few days of heavier bleeding which i thought was my womb clearing out...but i was wrong. Around 14 days after the first spot of blood my body cleared out, felt a little like labour pains and there was alot of blood loss that night. I felt awful, like i lost someone. I was in a daze for a few days, taking my boy to parks and trying to avoid people i knew...i wanted to hide away. It's only been about 7 days but already i'm feeling more upbeat and involved in daily life again. I never really thought about miscarriage during my first pregnancy, everything went perfectly. I feel for everyone who has gone through this and thank everyone who wrote about their story as they all helped me...I hope i can help someone too.

Euan's mum

losing my baby

I recently lost my pregnancy at 10 weeks. I had found out that iwas pregnant very early on. We did not tell many people as we wanted to keep this news quiet until after our scan. At the same time my friend found out she was pregnant but felt she wasn't ready to have children I offered my support in what she decided and encouraged her that it would be great our babies growing up together.
I started to bleed at 10 weeks only slightly but i knew something wasn't quite right. I phoned my out of hours surgery on a sunday and was reassured by the GP that this was normal. I begged them to send me for a scan but was told unless I was in a pool of blood that because it was a weekend, they would not scan me.
So after being told that this was normal i just carried on the evening as normal but I could not shake that feeling that I needed a scan to be 100% sure..
The following morning I went straight to the GP who then reffered me for a scan..
Me and my partner were excited if anything waiting to see our baby thinking everything would be ok. Lay on the bed being scanned which seemed to take forever the sonographer turned and said she couldn't find a heartbeat to which we were devestated.
I was asked what option I wanted to take but I asked what are the options I have never been through this before.
I've decided to opt for a D&C as I thought this was maybe the safer option.
When I got home the pregnant friend after knowing our loss decided to tell me she was aborting her baby. A HEALTHY BABY!!!!!
It makes me think why did this happen to us and not them. We were so deperate for aour baby to live and she was killing hers.

Euan's mum