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Sleepless in Chicago

I am 42 yrs old, and miscarried 2 wks ago. I have a 21 yr old son, 15 yr old daughter, and 3 yr old son. This is my 2nd marriage. In June my dearest Aunt passed away. I didnt have the chance to tell her I was pregnant. When I learned of her death i was roughly a month pregnant. I went for an ultra sound & dr told me 50% chance of miscarriage. That I should have been 8wks when i showed up in the inner ultra sound that i was about 4 1/2 wks pregnant. Hmm, roughly same time my aunt passed away. I was devasted, by Friday I was bleeding bright red. Saturday is a night I will never forget, the extreme and intense pain from 10:30pm-4:30am contracting and passing my baby naturally at home. I am numb. The dr kept saying oh its your eggs, they are too old. Excuse me? Hello, people older than me have healthy babies!! I have been suffering in silence for the past 2 wks since this has happened. I feel so empty and alone inside. I had so many dreams for this baby for it was going to be my last one. I had decided to get my tubes tied. But now I have to sit here and wait for 1 cycle to come and go before we can try again. I am terrified ! I believe I lost the baby because a few things going on..mainly stress and the death of my aunt that I loved deeply. I believe being pregnant helped me deal with her death much better. But obviously not well enough because I lost the baby too. Sure my husband tries to be there for me but come on, no man can ever truely know what us women go through especially after something like this. I just cry in silence, cry when no one is around. I miss being pregnant. Is there anyone out there my age bracket that has been able to successfully have a healthy baby even after a miscarriage?

Marleen

Saying goodbye before hello

Why does everything seem to be harder when something tragic like a Blighted Ovum happens. My names Amy and I was 18 when I discovered I was pregnant, 2 day before my 19 birthday was it finally confirmed. Me and my fiance didnt know how to take the news, scared, frightened, nervous what were we going to do with a kid. As the months went on the idea of us being parents finally sunk in and the fear and all the other emotions we felt earlier were soon turned to excitment. We couldnt wait to see what we were going to have, couldnt wait to hear the heartbeat. Unfortunately 2 days before my first ultrasound I soon started to bleed then after 2 days of being in and out of the hospital I miscarried. In excrutiating pain I was finally rushed to the hospital were I was given an emergency D & N. Afterwards everyone said 'it was meant to be'... 'your to young anyway'... this all may be true but it doesnt make anything better. I still cry when Im alone, I still cant watch certain shows like 'a baby story'. I miss the idea that I was one day going to be a mom, that I was going to have my own family. It's now been a week and Im coping a little better, but I will always remember this and I will always fear that this is going to happen again.

Amy

Miscarriage

I was told by the dr that I am pregnant on Sunday at 5pm. I was so happy and excited after hearing the news..On Monday, I woke up with severe pain and heavy bleeding and before I even know, I found the Dotor telling me I am miscarrying. Whenever, I go to the washroom and see piece of bood, I can't stop crying...I am both very hurt and feel guilty. I feel I am the killer by being careless in my movement. I didn't rest and pay attention to the baby. I feel I am a careless mother.

Nez

nevr thought it hapn to me.....

HERE I AM 32, MOM OF 4...MY OLDEST IS 14, 11 AND THEN MY TWINS CAME, 11 MONTHS TODAY! AND NOW IM HAVING A MISCARRIAGE...ID NEVER THOUGHT THIS COULD HAPPEN TO ME, OF COURSE U BLAME YOURSELF FIRST. THERES NO WAY I HAVE TIME OR THE MONEY TO RAISE ANOTHER BABY... MY TWINS KEEP ME VERY BUSY! BUT I CANNOT STOP HURTING FOR THIS BABY THAT COULDVE BEEN..I JUST FEEL EMPTY...AND THE PHYSICAL PAIN IS TERRIBLE!! THEY SAY TAKE TYLENOL, WHEN IT FEELS LIKE EARLY STAGES OF LABOR! ITS LIKE PUTTING A BANDAID ON A BROKEN BONE! SO WHAT ELSE CAN I DO BUT JUST DEAL WITH IT! MY HEAVENLY FATHER IS ALREADY HEALING ME AND MY FAMILY...GOD BLESS....SARAH

Sarah Lara

six weeks

today i had my miscarriage confirmed.i have all the symptoms, sore breasts, heartburn and sickness. i was so sure the few hours of bleeding would be ok. my mum bled for half her pegnancy. everyone reassured me.i work at a nursery surrounded by babies. i have a 10yr old daughter already but once i divorced i thought i would never have the chance again. then James came along. he is much younger than i and not ready for a family. then after a night together and not using contraception (a joint decision) i fell pregnant. i knew after a week i felt it. i still feel it.James came around to the idea, my family and i were overjoyed. then last week i got a cramp. on going to the toilet i noticed period like blood. the hospital said it was too early for a scan. then as quickly as the bleeding started , it stopped. i felt fine. now i feel so miserable. James is working away from home and i have no baby. i cant try again because as i said James doesnt want them. i am 34 now anddont know what to do with myself. i know i haveto be strong for my daughter but inside i am falling apart.is there light at the end of the tunnel for me???

joe