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miscarriage

hi, I had a miscarriage at 22 week, when i did not feel any pains or signs. the first two weeks weeks were devastating for me but now i coming alright because i decided to go back to work to relieve myself from stress. the calming way for me, I bought clothes that I was hoping to buy for my baby for my friend who has a six months old baby. you could feel the relieve I had in my heart. It really helped me. Now I feel better and motivated to try again.

loveygirl

Waited too long

I've been married to my husband for eight years and have a child that is 8 years old. it was in march that i noticed the same symptoms of pregnancy when i took the pregnancy test, it came out positive. three weeks in to it, i started having crampings and lower back pain, and called my ob and he told me that that was normal all i had to do was take a bed rest and if i started spotting than go to the office or E.R., everything was fine untill the next day was when i started having spotting that led to a flow that i had to use 10 pads every hour, since im a manager i couldn't miss work, so i thought probably it wasn't nothing, untill two weeks later, i started feeling sick, that's when my husband and mom insisted for me to go to the doctor's office, and when i went there my ob did a check on me and said that the baby was still there, and did an ultrasound and there was no heart beat. he later told me that the week that i had my spotting was when i misscarried, and he gave me two options d&c or take a pill that would help me pass it, i took the pill, two hours later in the office i passed what looked like a sac, and the doctor confirmed it, i was shocked because i thought, why did i took so long to come here and wait, now we are trying again,hopefully everything goes ok.

Catalina Quiroz

My 3 losses -my angels

I have two beautiful healthy boys that are 10 and 7. When my youngest was around 2 I got pregnant again-unplanned. When I was suppose to be 19 weeks pregnant I went to a baby store to find out what I was having there I found out the baby didn't have a heartbeat they told me to go to the Er. I went to the ER and they told me the baby only measured 15 weeks and 4 days- it was a girl ! I was told I needed a D & E and they couldn't test the fetal tissue-? Later I found out they should have and could have now all I have are unanswered questions. Around two years later we had another unplanned pregnancy and I was excited. At 13 weeks I started going into labor and delivered the baby at home at 15 weeks. By the time I made it to the hospital everything was gone. Now 2 years later I found myself pregnant again and scared to death. At my 11 week appt I found out that the babys heartbeat stopped. I was so devastated - I couldn't decide what to do I had a D & E and did it naturally and I didn't know what to do. A week later I went into labor at home and it was terribly painful so I went to the ER where I was in so much pain and nothing would help with the pain not even 2 vicodins so they gave me morphine I was in labor from 6 till 2 when I finally delivered the baby and they were able to test the child. Today I found out it was another girl and she had down syndrome. I feel some what relieved I wasn't put in the position to choose but I am so sad ! I can't believe after 3 miscarriages I finally found out why I lost my last one. The other two I will never know. The Doctor said that he really feels that it was highly unlikely that the other two were the same . I am 38 years old and I feel like my time has past to try again and I am scared to death to try again. I know I am blessed that I have two healthy wonderful boys but I can't seem to long for one more. Never let a doctor tell you they can't test your child after a miscarriage-the pain of not knowing is so hard to bear . I feel some comfort knowing that I am not alone. I have realized that a healthy pregnancy is not a given and if god blesses you with one you are doubly blessed. I hope happy and healthy pregnancy for everybody out there but I also hope for peace for the ones that have gone through the same pain I have been through 3 different times.

Julie

emptiness

I was so excited when i found out that i was pregnant it was my 1st child with my partner i have 2 from my former marriage. I had no morning sickness and just thought that i was having an ideal pregnancy. on the mornig of our 1st scan we were so excited to see our baby for the 1st time when we got there we went in but as the scan showed our little angel was not forming right and the pregnancy could not continue. I went back to the hosptal 3 days later to have my misscarirage brought on by tablets i went through a mild labour and i am now exsperiencing al the feelings of just having a baby but have nothing to show for it i feel so empty and lost the 1 thing i am so thankful for is having a partner who is understanding and is there when ever i need him

mel

Waking up

I hate wakeing up in the morning, I hate going to bed at night and I hate every other minute of the day. Last week I was so excited about my pregnancy and relaxed I was out of the risky first 3 months. I was completley blindsided when I went in for my four month check up. The doctor couldn't hear the babys heart beat strong enough and he was convinced that he was just laying in a difficult position. He then wheeled out the ultra sound machine so we could get a better look..he was still and there was no flashing or fluttering..He had died. It was a snowball of events afterwards, I was quickly sent to the hospital to have the baby removed so I did not have to go through the heartbreaking process of labor. What do I do now? What do I do knowing my baby is never coming..how do I deal with people? I want to hide...I have no words of wisdom, no comforting advice other than it happens to many of us..but why? Why does it have to?

marella degano