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2 miscarriages and 1 broken heart

Hello, I am a 27 yr old woman who has been married for 2 1/2 yrs....as I was growing up I always wanted to be a mom. I love children just that much.... anyway I became sexually active at the age of 16 yrs old (my regret)...anyhow I was with my boyfriend for 7 yrs. I never became pregnant... I started to think I couldn’t have kids...however we broke up when I was 22 and I met my husband when I was 23...we married when I was 25 and 2 months after our wedding I found out I was pregnant...oh my life was coming all together.

However at 10.5 wks there was no heartbeat. I was devastated. I wanted to die...I went into a depression for a couple of months. Envious of pregnant women. I cried so much.... after that my husband and me wanted to try again...so I started to take Clomid to speed our process...for a whole yr. Nothing. So I gave up...another yr went by ...and I became pregnant...I was so happy ...I was truly blessed...I found out at 9wks. I had a sonogram and I saw my baby!!! I cried.... as time progressed… I took my vitamins, and went to my appts...at 20 wks...I saw pink...I knew something was wrong. I had my husband take me to the emergency room and they examined me. They said my cervix was open and my water would break soon.... my heart left my body I couldn't believe this!

They gave me the opportunity to get a cerclage (were they sew the cervix shut) in the process of that, my water started leaking, so they had to stop the procedure! My water broke and I just cried and cried.... I was in the hospital for 6 days until they told me I had to be induced because my child lungs would not be able to develop at so early on and without the fluid...so me and my husband complied and about 5 hrs later I gave birth to my first born Chandler Nathaniel Rodney on 8/22/07 he weighed 10oz. He was alive for about 20mins...he was so perfect...I wanted to die with my son...I didn’t want him to leave me, because we have just met...I didn't get a chance to be a mom to him, now what I am suppose to do...how can I go on...it took me 2yrs to get pregnant and I can’t wait another 2yrs...

My life is so empty and I am trying to move on, but I constantly think of him...it seems like everyone I know is pregnant or just had their baby...most of them are on their 2nd and 3rd one and they weren’t even trying...and I can’t get my one… I’ve always wanted...my exterior is holding together. But my interior is in pieces...I don’t want to live. I want to be with my son...however I am Christian and I know my Jesus will bless me again soon! Please someone who has been thru a loss of a child talk to me...or email me veerodney28@yahoo.com.... just want to talk to anyone who can help me get thru my loss again... I can’t do it alone.

2nd Miscarriage

My first miscarriage occurred in February this year and the baby would have been born on my mum’s birthday however after just finding out we were pregnant and going through the rollercoaster of emotions from scared to happy, we were excited that we were going to be expecting our first child. However, it was not meant to be…at 6 weeks our baby died, we were devastated I blamed myself, my husband was terrific very supportive.

We got on with our lives but really wanted to try again, we waited a few months and found out in June we were pregnant again. This time every twinge had me running to the toilet I was constantly scared that we were going to miscarry again.

Sadly after 8 weeks being pregnant I started to miscarry, I rang the midwife and she said it might be nothing and to rest but I should prepare myself for the fact that I could be miscarrying. Again our joy turned to despair and I felt "why me?" We so want kids I would even just settle for one at this stage. Its heart breaking everywhere I look I see pregnant bellies and I am so jealous, one of my friends at work is pregnant and she is due round the same time as our baby would have been born, so whilst I am totally delighted it is very hard to see her every day.

Also someone very close to me is also expecting their first child and I am feeling insanely jealous, as it was not planned and they are sailing through the pregnancy. I am hoping all goes well for them but I can't help how I feel. Were going to try again but I am petrified that we will have the same problem. So please say a wee prayer for us that this time we will be blessed with a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby at the end.


S J

Why again?

Well, my story I feel is unlike anyone’s. I feel completely alone. But I’m sure there is someone who can relate out there. I have two healthy girls, 3 &1, and I’ve m/c twice now: 4/07 and again 8/07. I was 11 weeks and 2 days with each, both babies through ultrasound we heard heartbeats multiple times, but then at that 11-week appointment, I don't know. The first time I really lost it emotionally. This past time-I haven't cried, nothing. The day we found out I was taken immediately to have a D&E and the next day my husband went to work as usual. I just wish i could have one person to talk to, or to answer my questions.

Jacqueline

Miss my little angel

I was 12 weeks along and thru out I stained and the dr said it was fine not to worry. On 4/28/07 I went to the doctor because I had back pain and they said once again that it was normal. And I did an internal ultrasound and when the doctor was done I was bleeding a lot. Went home not feeling right I went to bed and woke up at 2:00 in the morning and felt like something was coming out. I ran to the bathroom and my baby had come out I screamed to my husband to come and look, the baby looked fine. Just very tiny my husband took it out and he put the baby in a little jar and I went to the hospital with the baby in my hand. I was numb and could not cry this is my second loss. I feel for all the mothers who lost there little ones I say mothers because even if you did not get to bring home that little angel…there still is one in your heart.

So good luck to the ones who are still trying for their dream I am.
Thanks for listening to my story.


jodi

7 Miscarriages in almost 4 years

Hi! My name is Mary I'm 30 years old and my husband is 35. We have 2 healthy boys that are 8 and 6 no problems with either pregnancy. We have been trying for the last 5 years to have another. I have no problem getting pregnant just carrying them. I don't understand how I had two healthy pregnancies than followed by 7 losses. The doctors have given me no reason for my losses. I am currently going through my 7th loss as I type this. I was at the ER last night and the Dr said I have O+ blood type (which I knew) but then went on to ask me what blood type my husband is I told him I don't know. He said it would be good to know cause this could be the reason why I am miscarrying. So I looked up on the net about it and read that I am carrying a child that is A or B blood type my body could reject it. Don't know how true this is but I know that both my boys are also O+ blood type as well. I don't know why my Dr didn't look at this before. Even the Dr in the ER was questing why she did not check this out. So I hope after all my losses we will finally have an answer to what was unknown for the last 4 years.

Mary