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Im sorry

I dont even know where to start. Well me start at the beginning. It all started when I was fourteen. I had sex for the first with a friend of mine. It wasnt that big of a deal to me, even though it should of been. It was July of 2003 and I had met this guy. His name was Cory. It was just a one night thing but that one night changed my life forever. Fast forward to October of 2003, I missed my period for the rest of summer. I was so scared that I was pregnant but I kept telling myself that it was just stress. I wasnt feeling well and was missing alot of school so my mom took me to see my doctor. Right there in the doctors office, I broke down and told my mom everything. She was so mad at me. She explained everything that I just told her to my doctor, I couldnt talk because I was crying so hard. I was ashamed at myself for letting my mom down. I was only fourteen at the time. My mom always told me if I was to get pregnant young that I wasnt going to keep, that I would get an abortion. So I knew the next step. After confirming that I was indeed pregnant, my mom scheduled my abortion. By the time we finally got in to the clinic I was already fifteen because my birthday had just passed. My first exam I was told that I would need a two day procedure because I was already fourteen weeks. At the time I didnt know what that meant , I just knew that I was pregnant. On November 10, 2003 I had my abortion done. That was the worst pain that I ever experienced at that age. Now five years later, Im in a wonderful relationship but I regret my decision. I want so badly to have a baby to make up for mistake I made but I cant. My finance doesnt want kids now and that tears me up inside. Im sorry for what I did, I hope God will forgive me. Even though its been five years, it feels like it was just yesterday. Please dont judge me because just writing my story took so much courage.

Sarah

missed miscarriage

Hi
I am 31 years old I recently lost my baby, on 28th week of my pregnancy, I had missed miscarriage I was unaware that the fetus had died in my womb until I had had scan done, doctor informed me that the fetus had stopped growing on 21 st week and I was asked to terminate my pregnancy, and I had normal delivery without any surgery done. After my miscarriage I underwent Torch test and found positive. And doctor advise me to have spiramicin and acivir dt-400 for next 3 months. my past history is that when I was 18 years old I was raped by 52 years old man and i had two abortion done. after 11 years I got married and I had this missed miscarriage. I am totally depressed I want to conceive again. will I have a normal baby again please help

nisona

my miscarriage experience

I had occassional spotting beginning one month into my pregnancy. The nurses told me it was normal which I have read that it was especially after intercourse and wiping after using the toilet. When I was 9 weeks I began bleeding and it did not stop. It was light but flowing. I went in for an u/s and the doctor called me the next night advising that the u/s showed a pregnancy that was 5 weeks not 9. The next day I underwent a blood test. When I spoke the doctor the following day, he advised that the levels were not where they should be and after reviewing the images from my u/s he found that the gestational sac was deformed and not that of a healthy pregnancy. He told me that I was indeed going to miscarry. It happened naturally 5 days after I began bleeding. My husband and I already have a 17 month old daughter made this experience a lot easier to take. We intended on trying again as soon as we are able.

April

r.j.

Hi my name is selina.This is my story. I'm 27 years old I have 3 beautiful children one is 11, 6, and 5. I got pregnant in oct. of 2007. I have an 11 year old son from a previous relationship and 2 girls with my now husband. So when i came out preg. we hoped for a boy. Well the day we went to find out what we were having we found out it was a boy. My husband was so exited. Well on June 22 2008 I woke up that morning bleeding not thinking anything bad I called my husband and told him it was time to go to the hosp. All the way to the hospital i was getting contractions so i thought everything was fine. Well I got to the room and they could'nt find the heartbeat. they came in with the machine and couldnt find a heartbeat. the nurse then told me my baby had died. I then chose to deliver naturally so i waited 6 hours to deliver my son. He was born at 3:45pm on a sunday afternoon.I miss him everday. I long to feel a baby right now so bad.I had 3 friends preg. at the same time and all of them have thier baby but me. dont get me wrong i'm happy for them but why did this have to happen.i want to try agin but i'm so scared how do you go 9 months not knowing if it is going to happen agin.

selinam

losing Karista

I noticed at around 23 weeks that i did not feel my daughter moving. I then noticed that my stomache looked softer and had dropped. I went to my regular 25 week checkup and the dr could not hear a heart beat. I got a sonagrahm and found out she had passed away. The dr. was surprised since I had an amnio and she had no problems. After she was born me and my husband got to hold her and take pictures which helped alot. We got an tests done and found out her cord was twisted so she could not get nutrients. The dr. said that it was rare for something like this to happen and that we could try again. It really helped to have a small gathering of my family on her due date to remember her and to answer questions my family wanted to ask. I will never forget her but it is try that it gets better every day!

kathie kiang