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Pre-eclampsia and my Angel's loss

I was on my 20th week and still was having lots of nausea, when I noticed my ankles, face, hands were swollen, I thought this was a normal part of pregnancy and was also working in a stressed software job, so I hadn't taken the time to read many books about complications of pregnancy. I had no idea that pre-eclampsia or toxemia even existed, let alone the symptoms. 4-5 days I took rest and the next day, I just had one thought to see the doctor as I wanted to resume my job after 5 days and for the safer side I met a doctor.

They advised me to hospitalize immediately as my blood pressure was 190/110, they also monitored my urine-protein level and fetal heart beats. There was a problem in the urine protein that was 4+ and my baby was stressed too. And she told me I was suffering from severe pre-eclampsia. For being in a hospital 3 weeks my blood pressure was little normal 140/90. I was so happy and immediately wanted to go to work to take a 6 months full leave.

Doctor gave me discharge and asked me to follow every 2 day-- blood pressure checkups, asked to take 24 hrs bed rest, I did not rest all the time. But I strictly followed diet and tablets timing strictly. I was so confident that nothing would happen to my baby. I felt all next 10 days… headed and nauseated. Regularly was going to doctor for BP checkups and urine sample to trigger protein level. At 26th week and a day I caught a killer headache, so doctor asked me to come to hospital and asked to do a color doppler sonography. In this sonography fetal blood resistance came to be known.

That morning my Bp was 140/90 and fetal heartbeats were 140. But sonography report was bad; my little angel was in a high resistance with risk. I was so sad the whole day. I was also on a toxypherine inj for angel's liver and lungs development. Doctor advised us both that we would have to take the baby out within 8 days. But never told us that there could be possibility of fetal death if single mistakes happens in 8 days.

We went home, and were trying to be happy that my little angel was gonna be out of stress, but unfortunately next morning I realized there was no movements of my little angel. Nobody was with me for 8hrs. I was just waiting for my fetal movement all the day and come to know something was wrong, my husband was at work and by coming home it took him hrs, when he reached we immediately went to the doctor and then with sonography result… we came to know that we lost our beautiful baby.

I felt really faint. I found all happiness being a mother has stopped, I cried a lot. Doctor induced me but with High BP. Dr asked to get baby out with C-section. Right away, I sat down, we both were terrified and felt very helpless! We both cried a lot and never have thought of this bad day for us.

Actually I prayed to god for my pregnancy and this miracle, happened after 7 years of our marriage. To be having an emergency c-section in a matter of a couple hours. SCARY! I was almost 27th week. When it was done and little angel was 900gm almost 2lb. My daughter was so pretty and beautiful.

God blessed my pregnancy but not my little angel. I have totally lost from that day and lots of fear in mind because of the pregnancy.

And I cannot spend a single second without my little angel. My husband and me are collapsed and are not coming out of the fact. Now we are recollecting the things what went wrong with us and what was our fault. Still I have high blood pressure and strictly following diets and reducing wt. but without angel… I cannot live without her. I could not explain that how much we were happy when I was pg.

So those went from this stage of pre-eclampsia but having baby with them are need not to worry they are not unlucky like me. We are forever changed by the death of a baby. It's up to us to make that change positive in some way.

So be happy and enjoy your happiness with your little angel and angel's each moment. God bless you and your child. Don't be scared of second pregnancy that you will get BP in second pg. There are 50 % chances of blood pressure but be positive there will not be blood pressure in second pg.

Try to reduce wt and intake of salt. Stricly be under observations of dr. and strictly follow instructions of dr. don't hesitant to get pregnant again. Best of luck.



Alka

ICP still birth

I begged my Drs to take my baby at 37 weeks and they kept putting me off and finally after 6 days my baby could not hang on any more. They knew my levels were high and still would not listen to me, that all I wanted was my baby alive. Now I am living with the pain of my little rain not being here.

megan moore

My Angel

My story is a somewhat familiar story. It took 2 yrs to conceive my first born son, Ethan. What a joy he was, and how thankful I was for him! Two years later, my precious daughter, Ellie, was born. She was a "surprise" but such an unexpected gift. They are 10 and 8 now. We wanted to have more children and never got on birth control. But life was busy and I never conceived even w/o birth control. Until now...two perfect pregnancies and I was ready for another. We only knew for a week, but it seemed like forever to me. I started having bleeding and horrible pain (like birthing pains) and I knew at once it was over. I just keep wondering what if. We will probably try again soon, but I never would wish this on my worst enemy. My only hope is in the Lord, and I know He will sustain me through this rough experience. My prayers go out to you all!

Jennifer

Pregnancy at 47

Hi, I have just had a miscarriage. I was about 7 weeks pregnant, first time pregnant aged 47.
Very upset at the moment. I bled heavily with the miscarriage, was scary, thought I might need to go to hospital, but managed not to.
Was a huge shock to find out that I was pregnant after many years of trying. Neither me nor my husband thought it could happen.
It was a "blighted ovum" where the fetus doesn't develop, and this showed on a scan at about 6 weeks. I was told I would miscarry, and just had to go home and wait for it to happen.
Very upsetting, cried all that day, don't feel many people understand, only someone who has been through it.
People mean well, but often say insensitive things, It makes me angry.
My sympathy goes out to all women in a similar situation, it's hard to cope with.

Michelle

Hurt

Here I am...Last week I heard some of the most joyous words of my life, "Congratulations, you are expecting".
This is my 3rd pregnancy. My other two were healthy children with no undue complications, other than my ex-husband and I had not planned them, they just happened and are very much loved. Then the divorce came a short time after my daughter was born & I thought that that would be the most painful day of my life. I turned out to be all right though & found a wonderful man who loves me & both of my children. We have been together for three years & recently engaged. Then on our anniversary this year, he whispered in my ear, "Let's just make a baby", something we have been discussing for the last year. We were not using anything but condoms at the time, so I agreed.

Then last week I heard those joyous words. The same week I found out I am going to have a baby, my best friend delivers her first. I was happy when I heard that, I made a joke about it.
Monday morning as I got up for work, I noticed I was spotting, so I immediately called the midwives I have used for the past 7 years. The first one I talked to just told me, "It is very early in your pregnancy. If you are going to lose the pregnancy, there is nothing we can do. Come in for an HcG test twice this week".

I went back to bed and stopped bleeding & went in for a blood test Tuesday. I stopped bleeding on Monday night. Than again on Wednesday afternoon, I was bleeding again. So I called my midwives once more. I got told the same thing. I stopped bleeding a few hours later. I never got any advice on what to do. I never experienced anything like this with my other pregnancies. Today when I started bleeding, I called another clinic, begging for an appointment. They set me up quickly with their best OB.

She did everything she could to make sure I was OK. She called the clinic where I went before and asked about my HcG levels & when she was told how low they were, she asked why I hadn't been notified. She did a TVUS on the spot & had to break the bad news to me, there was no heartbeat. She vows to stick through this with me, even though she has never met me before today. Even promising me that she will give it her all to see me through my next healthy pregnancy.

I am just going through the most difficult part right now...I knew I was pregnant for a little over a week & now that baby is gone. I already fell in love with that baby & everything it could have been. Hopefully, the grief process moves quickly & I will be able to enjoy life again & look forward to conceiving again. Right now I feel as if I am on auto-pilot for my fiancee and children.
The hardest part? Being happy for my best friend & her newborn. With all the trouble I have been having this week, I have not made it over to see her newborn & now I don't think I will be able to, for at least another few weeks.

Jess