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x2 Miscarrages (13wk & 5wk)

Hi, I have just read through some of the other stories and I felt that I must share mine. My Name is Sarah I am 27. I had my first miscarriage in Aug 08. I only knew as I had gone for my 12/13 wk scan and when they scanned me they noticed that there was no heartbeat. My husband and I where gutted as you can imagine, we where taken into another room to discuss our options. I could not make any at that time. We later decided to have a D&C which happened the next day. At the time I was advised that my baby had died at 8wk3days which I found so hard to accept. but since I have been told that it may not have it could have just been ill and very small hence the late loss, which made me feel a bit better. That I had not carried him/her around for over 5wk dead. I made some thing positive come out of my loss I started my own business to keep me busy I named it after our baby George. www.georgieporgiekids.com Which makes me remember our little one every day but in a good way. We also bought a rooted xmas tree which we will plant on the 4th March 09 baby's due date! every xmas we will put lites on to it to make it shine.
In Feb 09 i found out I was preg again we where over the moon, but only 5 days later I started to bleed. As you can imagine it was a nightmare. It was confirmed 3 days later that we had lost the baby. So now 22 Feb 09 I have been looking into WHY?? but the real reason is their is no blame and what we should be thankful for it the miracle of life as to be honest it is a miracle that any baby is born as its such a complicated processes for the egg and the sperm to go through.
I feel very lucky as I have had x lovely children before and i am sure we will have another one in time.
But please don't ever blame yourself as it will not have been your fault it really is natures way of ending a non perfect pregnancy.
x Love to you all as it really is a horrible time and all I can tell you is that the pain your feeling will lift and you will feel better one day x
Try to do nice thing so you remember but don't dwell on it as it will hurt you forever. x
Sarah x

Sarah

MY 2ND ULTRA SOUND

MY HUSBAND AND I HAVE BEEN MARIED FOR 3 YEARS. THIS WAS OUR FIRST PREGNANCY. WE WERE VERY EXITED, AND WORRIED ABOUT IT. MY FIRST ULTRA SOUND WAS DONE AT 6 WEEKS WITH A VISABLE HEARTBEAT. I WAS ALONE AT THIS VISIT AND DID NOT KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. AFTER 6 WEEKS AND NO PROBLEMS OR SICKNESS I WENT FOR MY 2ND ULTRA SOUND AND THERE WAS NO VISIBLE HEARTBEAT. I WAS CONFUSED BECAUSE I HAD NO SIGN OF ANY PROBLEMS. LUCKILY MY HUSBAND WAS THERE FOR ME. THE NEXT DAY I HAD A D & C AND THAT WAS 2 WEEKS AGO. WE ARE GOING TO TRY AGAIN IN 6 WEEKS.
THANKS AND GOODLUCK
ASHLEY

ASHLEY

2 Miscarriages...

My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years. We decided to start TTC in September ‘08. We got pregnant on our first try and were very ecstatic. Sadly that pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 6 weeks. Four days later my father had a stroke. Luckily my body took care of the miscarriage and I did not have to have a D&C. We waited out a cycle and then started to TTC again. We got pregnant again in Dec ’08 and got our BFP the day before Christmas. We were very excited but still a bit hesitant due to the last miscarriage. Everything seemed to be progressing well, I had morning sickness terribly and was on medication to stop the vomiting. I had a doctor’s appointment and exam at 8 weeks where she said everything looked good, but they wouldn’t do an ultrasound. I went in at 9 weeks to find the heartbeat and they were not able to with the Doppler so they just told me that it was difficult that early on. Then I went in again at the end of 9 weeks to try again and they still couldn’t find it but would not do an ultrasound unless I paid the $200. I went in again at 11 weeks and once again they couldn’t find the heartbeat so the doctor finally did an ultrasound. This is when we found out that the pregnancy had stopped around 6 weeks. So there was a sac but no baby present and everything was only measuring at 6 weeks. We were devastated. I cry all the time and feel so hopeless that I will ever have children.

The day after we found out about this miscarriage my husband lost his job. I just feel like the world is against me. My sister in-law is pregnant and due a month after I was going to be due. I feel angry and hurt all the time. I know it isn’t anyone’s fault but the feelings are so strong. One of the worst feelings is that my sister in-law hasn’t even said anything to me, she didn’t offer and condolences or anything.

My husband has been pretty amazing and understanding. It is still hard though, he heals faster than I do and has a much more positive outlook on life. I am so afraid he blames me for not being able to carry a baby for him. I worry our marriage will fall apart.

Katie

My story

My husband and I tried for almost a year to get prego after I got off the pill. I was begining to wonder if I could have kids since it was taking so long. Then on December 28 2008 I tested positive on an at home pregnancy test. I confirmed it on January 12 2009. Then on January 28 at 8 wks I called my Dr's b/c I was bleeding. We found out that I had a blighted ovum which is a form of a miscarriage. I had a d&c on January 30th. I had my follow up apt w/the Dr 2 days ago on February 13th. We're gonna try again. I hope my story can help someone else who is going through something similiar.

Leigh

two words every mother fears

My name is Amanda. I am 20 years old. My husband is 25. We had been trying for a baby since the day we got married. In May 2008 we finally got our positive pregnancy test. At my first visit with the ob doctor i had an ultrasound. Perfect heartbeat. Five weeks in i started pouring blood. Devastated we rushed to the hospital. After 4 hours in the ER the doctor came in and said my baby had a heartbeat- a strong heartbeat. The next day my ob doctor assured me that everything appeared fine. Four weeks later at nine weeks i had a dark brown discharge so i went in the next day for another ultrasound. "I'm so sorry sweetie but we can't find a heartbeat." My heart felt like it could stop beating. Four days later i had a D&C. I didn't think anything could ever be worse. Finally the doctor gave me the ok to start trying again. August 26,2008 i tested positive again. I had my first ultrasound at ten weeks. My babies heartbeat was wonderful. I feared another miscarriage throughout the entire first trimester. Finally i had made it through the first trimester and i started getting more confidence that it was going to be ok this time. On December 15, 2008 i found out my baby was a girl. My husband and i couldn't wait to start buying for her. Neither could anyone else. On christmas we received several gifts for her. She had began to kick occasionally but not all the time so when i went two days without feeling her i assumed it was normal. On January 12, 2009 i went in for a regular prenatal appointment and for my second trimester ultrasound. Here i am laying on the table waiting to see my baby when the technician asks me if i had been having any problems. I immediately panicked when she said she needed to get the doctor. The doctor came in and once again i heard those devastating words. My precious baby girl was gone. The next morning i was induced and at 2:53 pm i gave birth to Caylee Addison my 6.7 ounce, 9 inche baby girl. On January 16, 2009 we buried her. Today is February 14, 2009 and it still hurts just as bad as it did jan 13. Every baby i see is a reminder of what im not going to have. I cant stand pregnant women which is rough because my best friend is four months pregnant. Everyday i try to replay my pregnancy and figure out what i done wrong. Everyone says i shouldn't blame myself but i cant stop the thoughts. Some people have said some of the most hurtful things to me such as "your still young, you will be a mother one day." Maybe so but another baby won't replace Caylee and i feel that i am already a mother. Maybe she wasn't born alive but she was alive in me. I've also been told i need to "get over it." You never get over it, you learn to live. To all those mothers out there who are fighting this battle please remember you are not alone and i may not know you but i share your pain!

Amanda J