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I have a beautiful 2 year old son. Problem-free pregnancy with him, but did have to have a c-section because I wasn't dilated. I got pregnant for the second time this past March. The pregnancy seemed to be going fine. All doctor appointments went well. At 16 weeks the heartbeat was exactly what my son's was during my pregnancy for him. We went in at 20 weeks for a sonogram to possibly find out the gender of the new baby and there was no heartbeat. We were devastated. They arranged for us to go to the hospital that evening to induce me. We were there for less than 24 hours. Labor and delivery were quick. They said the baby was very small. We did not have an autopsy performed. They told us that 4 out of 5 times an autopsy does not help in finding an answer. The doctor said that all of the fluids were fine that the baby needed and that my blood tests were all ok. I try to look information up about this almost everyday. I've been on baby-less maternity leave for 5 weeks now. I've had some good days and then days where I just fall apart. I went yesterday to the doctor for my check-up and to get a back to work note. I am longing to hear stories of anyone who has been at least half way through their pregnancy and has gone through something like this. I am scared to go back to work because of my up and down emotions. I don't know when to expect my first menstral cycle to begin. Has anyone that has gone through something like this been brave enough to attempt another pregnancy? and had a successful pregnancy?
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Ruby May our angel

I am 17 years old and was told id had a misscarriage on the 24th june. I had some blood prior to this but thought nothing of it as i had been told i had a rare blood type and this might happen but i had this feeling that im sure many of you have had that something bad was happening. This was our 2nd chance at being parents and that had been taken from us again it felt so unfair. I started to envy or cry histericaly at any women who walked by that was pregnant and that seemed to be everyone. Weeks went by like this till my partner told me that i could chose to take help or risk losing any chance of having a baby as i was destroying myself. I was roughly 17weeks and she would have been due on the 26th november 2010 and named Ruby-May. I still remember sitting in the hospital bed being told and the weeks of bleeding afterwards i now remember wot i should be remembering which is how beautiful she must look in heaven with her dads eye and my smile (Hopefuly) i am nowhere near recovering from it but i know she has an angel watching over her and she is watching over me cuz she's my angel but what sort of mum would i be to her if i gave up on life. She may not live on in my tummy anymore but she lives on in our hearts. My partner does not talk about his feelings on it much but he couldnt be anymore supportive to me and his shoulder couldnt be anymore wet from my tears but without him i wouldnt be here and learning to heal. U cant forget your baby but u can know in your heart that when the time is right they will come back to you healthy and ready to be held in your arms and in your heart. Ruby-May take care my lil Angel don't stay away from mummy and daddy to long we miss you but we are coping now and know you are in our hearts. My Advice to women is the pain cannot be cured straight away but don't give up finding hope as it is out there you just gotta wonna find it.

Winona

To young for this pain

I was seventeen years old when I had a miscarriage. I Found out I was pregnant in December of 2009. I couldn't believe that I was pregnant, it was my senior year in high school and I was pregnant. I was so happy that i was going to be a mom, I couldn't wait to get to school to tell everyone. Everything was going good until I started bleeding, I was scared so I went to the doctor. They told me that it was normal to bleed while your pregnant that it was just my period trying to end and that the bleeding should stop in a day or two. As the days went on so did the bleeding and it got heavier by the day.I went back to the doctor and they told me that I shouldn't worry that everything was going to be fine, but they were wrong. Two days later I woke up with terriable cramps and I starded bleeding very bad. I soaked up one pad less than five minutes. That when I knew it was serious. I had my miscarriage in my cousins bath room. I was so scared. I was changing muy pad before I went to the doctor and that when my baby fell into the tissue that i had in my hand.I didn't know what to do so I flushed it. That was eight months ago and I still cry every day wondering what I did wrong. I would never want anyone else to go through the pain that I feel inside.

Lasharndra Slaughter

baby angle marie my first baby and my first loss

im 21 years old i found out i was pregnant when i had went to the doctors on 8-12-10 because i havent been feeling well when the doctor told me i was pregnant i was sooo shocked bt sooo happy and also scared how was i supposed to tell my famliy and to mention it was my mother birthday and i had to tell her because she had went to the doctors will me but to my surprise she was happy she even said that was the best birthday persent any one can give her she was going to a grandma for the first time and i was going to be a mom for the first time but my happiness so truned in worry when the doctor told me that he is worried about the baby because i was spottin a little bit and he told the thinks that i might be having an ectopic pregnancy or that i could jts be miscarring so he sent me to the hospital so that i could have an u/s done and some blood work

on my way to the hospital i called me boyfriend so that he could meet me there i still had to tell him the news about being pregnant when he got there i was crying because i was scared then i told him he was shocked and yet happy but he also started crying because of what the doctor had said he was worried after that i had to get blood work done and i also had to get two u/s done the nurse told me she couldnt see the baby so she said that i was early in my pregnancy she estimated that i was about 2 to 3 weeks going by my last period after being in the ER for six hours i got my blood result it came out to be normal me and the baby were ok bt that i had to return to get blood test in 48 hours and then they sent me home telling me i had start my pernatal vitamins the next day...

then next two days were so scary for my because i noticed i started to bleed more so i got worried so i just stayed in bed the whole time till i had to get my blood test again.saturday came along went to hospital got the test done and i would know my results on monday morning when i go see my doctor also that day it was my mom and grandpa bday party and as everyone was getting things ready i just stayin laying down till i had to get ready i had went to the bath room where i noticed that i had tiny little blood clots i remember looking at it crying asking god to please just let me stop bleeding let my baby be ok(it wasnt till later that day then i found out that it was my baby that i had jts lost).bt later that day i had called my boyfriend telling him that i had a feeling that i should go to the hospital because i knew something was wrong so we decided that we go to the party for about an hour and just leave and go to the hospial around 8 at night we left as i got there got a room and waited till someone came in and check me seem like for ever i had my boyfriend and my cousin with me there im remember saying that i hope everything ok so that on monday i could find out when im due after about 10 min later two nurses came and checked asked my boyfriend and cousin to step out of the room till there where done as she was getting ready to look at me she asked me if i was bleeding alot and how many times have i change my pad i told her about twice that day i had to changed it and thats when she said that i had miscarried because my hCG test had went really down it was half of what it was two days ago.i started crying so bad when my boyfriend came back to the room i didnt even had to tell him he already knew by the way i was crying that i lost our baby we held each other crying so hard i kept sayin that i wasnt fare i really wanted to have my baby everyone was looking so forword of me being a mother this pain i was feelin was like no other.

its been 10 days since i lost my baby every moment of every day i cant stop thinking of the loss of my baby it hurts so bad i go to sleep thinking about her( i like to think that she was guna be a girl)i dream about her and wake up thinking about her.that day i lost my baby i lost a big part of me too but i know my little girl is in a better place me and my boyfriend even decided to name her we picked the name Angel Marie Lopez because she is an angel in heaven now.My prayers go to all who have and going thru the pain of losing a baby its the hardest thing to got thru and im so sorry for loss.... but even as im hurting really bad right now i know that one day god with bless me with a baby and that angel marie will have baby brother or sister one day and i know he is taken good care of my little angel.

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mari fonseca

An Angel Baby Girl In Heaven

When I first found out I was pregnant I was so Happy and thrilled Because I always wanted a baby. I told my family and they were so excited for me. I needed for something to go right in my life after having a very hard time living with a very complicated problem. I told my boyfriend that I was pregnant and he was very happy but then as time went by he got very angry he didn't want a baby and he didn't want me anymore. I found out that I was having a baby girl and I was so thrilled I wanted a daughter so badly I named Her Gracie Evelyn. I was about 5 1/2 mths pregnant and I saw Her father and he got very angry that I didn't have an abortion and he punched me in the stomach. It instantly Killed my Baby Girl. I remember having the D&C done and crying all the way there and all the way back. I cried for a month straight. I cant get over the fact that she is not her with me.Its only been about 2 1/2 mths now and I am still not dealing with it well. But I have a Beautiful Baby Girl Named Gracie Evelyn In Heaven Watching Over Me. Mommy Loves You Baby Girl<3

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