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Please Don't Give Up! I have had 15 Miscarriages

Hello and God Bless You All. I know of the Pain that You are going through.

I my self have had 15 miscarriages, (Yes 15) and I know your Pain. I have had every painful test that you can imagine with still No Baby. I have had tubal surgery losing my left tube in the process. I am getting very desperate because of my age (36) I know that my Faith in God is the only thing that keeps me going. He knows what is right for me and when He is ready it will happen.

Sometimes I just want to scream!!!! to make the pain of Loss go away. Please don't give up as I have not. I will keep trying until they have to remove everything.

May God be with you and Comfort you all in your time of Sorrow.

Angela

my story

I am 30 yr old happily married mother of 3.In Feb. 08 my husband I decided we wanted to try for our 4th baby. April 3rd I took ahpt and the 2nd line was so light that over the next few days I took 4 more. All were positive.

Unlike my other pregnancies I didn't want to tell anyone I was pregnant until I went to the doc. On April 8, 2008 I woke to bright red blood and clots. Since I didn't have a dr yet I went to the ER. I was diagnosed with a threatened miscarraige and my hcg levels were at 14.

Thursday went back my levels dropped to 6. I was diagnosed with an inevitable miscarriage. Friday finally saw my ob/gyn and she confirmed the miscarriage had occured on the 8th. She reassured me that nothing i did caused this.

She recommended that my hubby and I wait 3 cycles before trying again.

I'm sad for the loss but I'm eager to try again.

Jennifer

my nightmare

I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks. i wanted to be a mum for so long and was so excited to be pregnant. i couldnt and still cant believe that my dreams are gone and shattered. i cant even look at anyone who is pregnant without wondering what i did wrong. im so scared to go through it again but hopefully having a baby one day will make the pain go away. thankyou to everyone who has shared their story. i didnt think that anyone understood how i felt, but we have all gone through the same thing and this is a huge comfort to me. thankyou, i am so glad i came across this site

Amber

ANGEL STRAW

my boyfriend an i had been going out for 6 years. february 2008 i started to feel something so wrong in my body. my cheeks are flushing red all the time, and my ears too. I never had the slighest idea that i am pregnant. we have been trying for the past 6 years without any form of contraception. march 5, 2008. i went home from work like usual, while my bf was still at our office. i test myself, knowing that it will be a thin pink line, i just ignored by not looking at it, after ten minutes, i decided to check it. I was about to faint when i saw two thin lines which indicate i was pregnant. after trying another 2 sets of tests, i was convinced that i was pregnant. it was such a joy for me and my bf.
i had a transvaginal u/s after 3 days and shows i was 6weeks4 days pregnant. the baby had a strong hearbeat.
i was counting weeks and even days. my bf and i were so elated that we begun buying clothes for our lil one. at dinner, my bf cooks delicious foods for me, and at work, he will sneak into my cubicle and touch my belly and plant kisses on my tummy. well, it ended a very happy pregnancy. after three weeks, i visited the OB again. had another transvaginal u/s. and there was my lovely kid, no movement though, but, with a strong heartbeat. the CRL shows 9weeks0days.
Had a video taken and we were so proud of our huge accomplishment. and we were starting to think of names for our lil one.
after two weeks, i went to see the OB because, i had some cramps and a slight discharge. had to go through another transvaginal u/s. i was so silent when my doctor said " no heartbeat, the baby stopped growing at 9 weeks"... 9 weeks and 0 days!! that was the same day that i had my second u/s. did he died that day??? i was carrying a dead baby for two weeks and nothing comforts me during that long anguished time i was inside the clinic. my bf was holding the camera, and while i passed by him, he asked me " what happened" i cannot bear to look at him in the eye. and we took the stairs instead of the lift. I cried a lot and my bf just stare at me. blankly and that hurted even more.

On friday night, april 11, 2008, i started to bleed, at first it was a brownish discharged and later on turned to a heavy bleeding. Saturday morning, april 12, 2008, my bf and auntie left me as they will have to work., i was left having pain which lasted only for 1 hour and a half. i was on the phone with my bf when i shouted that he should come home, as i was having a deep but tolerable pain in my abdomen and in my pelvic area.

suddenly, a loud thud from my nappy was felt, and a little while, i felt that something like slippery came out. my bf came just came in time, i went to the washroom, and closed my eyes as i took off my panties and napkin.

my bf checked it, and there was our lil angel, Zachaeus Isaiah Ulrich, born @ 9 weeks. the pain and the sorrow mixed as i lay in my bed that night. Nothing can make me feel so strong. except the truth that God took my angel away maybe because my angel is indeed an angel who asked God to chose me to be his earthly mother.

the doctor didnt perform a d/c instead she put me on antibiotics. i hope, i will get better soon, as im still feeling so weak.

i had given a nick name to my kid, STRAW, for i loved to eat a lot of strawberries for the whole 3 weeks i knew i was pregnant.

now, i dont know where will i pick up the remains of my shattered heart. my bf has been so supportive and has been so strong for both of us, despite knowing that, he is also broken from this whole ordeal.

i missed my angel STRAW..we still havent had the courage to bury him.

Missing him.. and he will be our first sweetie..

cristinazarah

Losing My Son

I never thought I would ever be going through this type of loss. I am the mother of two healthy boys, 5 and 2. I just lost my baby boy on April 2, 2008. I was 16 1/2 weeks pregnant. I thought everything was going well. When I first learned I was pregnant, I found out I had an 8cm cysts on my left ovary. Not sure if that's what caused me to lose my son. It hurts so bad. I miss him so much. The Doctors kept telling me he was alright. He was doing just fine when they did their ultrasounds. But on that morning I don't know what went wrong. I couldn't sleep that night. I kept going to the bathroom. Then all of a sudden I was in so much pain. My mother rushed me to the ER and shortly after I was holding my son in my hand asking God why. We had a burial for him on April 9, 2008. It's been really hard. I wonder what he would have been like. He looked just like my youngest son. I know in time God will show us the answers. But for now it's hour by hour and day by day dealing with the pain until we can see him again.

Torie Cashaw