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my first pregnancy

im 20 years old and just suffered from a stillbirth. It was wednesday afternoon when my husband and me went to our ultrsound appointment to find out the sex of the baby. we were so excited when we were looking at the screen when the nurse said"i have bad news for you guys" at first i thought she was gonna say the baby was positioned wrong to tell the sex but then the words "there is no heart beat and the baby is the size of a 17week fetus" tears came down my face all my dreams were broken. i was in the hospital for 3 days and the third day i delivered a baby boy. i couldnt believe that after trying so hard to have a healthy pregnancy i lost my preciouse baby all i do is cry but i know that my lil angel is in a better place. i hope to keep strong...

dolly

On my 24th Birthday

IT was january 25 th 2008 . i was nine and half months pregnant . Earlier that morning i was feeling discomfort and pain lying in bed was unbearable. so i got up and went to the bathroom. As i began to urinate i felt no movement as i usually do every morning when i urinate. i began to panic then my mucuse plug came down and i began contracting. I woke my husband up and told him that i needed to be rushed to the hospital immediatly.On the way to the hospital i felt no fetal movement at all but just contraction pain. i was in so much pain and all i kept thinking was there is something wrong . As i made my way to the emgergency room the nurses put me on a bed in the triage room with 3 other mothers to be . A nurse came in and examined me along witha black male doctor . The doctor said i was 7centimeters so i thought to myself that i wouldnt be that far along. then the nurse tried to put the heart monitor on my stomach and i noticed that she had a puzzled look on her face .She took the heart monitor off my stomach and asked for the doctor to come in . The doctor did a sonagram on my stomach and then requested that another doctor come in and do another sonagram . then he asked for a female sonagropher to come an take a look. abay then i akready knew that something was terribly wrong with the baby. Then the female sonagrapher looked at me and told me that she was sorry and taht my sons heart had stopped . i was in shock and disbelief. I screamed i kicked and told the doctors that i did everything right how could this be. My obgyn finally arrived and had to diliver my son stillborn. it was the worst feeling in the world . All i can remember is looking at the clock above the tv in the hospital and silently said HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself.MY HUSBAND AND I FILED FOR DIVORSE NOT TOO LONG AFTER.

samantha lowe

Baby Allyson gone too soon

I was finally expecting our 5th baby after 3 years of praying and over a year of trying. They were worried at first cause the ultrasound showed did not show eveything. A week later all was there.. I was very sick and heartburn hit right away.. Finally a heartbeat, our baby was growing..Went in again for bleeding..it was previa our baby was fine. Went in at 18 weeks for our ultrasound and she was perfect.. Her heart had dropped from 164 to 125 but they said very normal.. They didn't get a good look at her heart so back in 6 weeks,, In 2 weeks after that, I noticed WAY less movement.. EVERYTHING ON INTERNET said to be checked. but i thought she was just like my other girls..lazy and I would feel her...i thought Then my heartburn started leaving.. i thought the meds were working.. still no big alarms... went in July 16th ( i was 25 weeks along) and was told her heart had stopped weeks before and she had already started changing.. Gave birth to her on July 18, 2010. She was perfect besides her color..she weighed 7.4 oz and was 10 inches long..Long fingers and legs, a little hair that looked blond. I held her, alot, so did dadd, and her brother and sisters, grnadma and grandpa, kept her in the room with us till we had to leave a day later, Had the funeral home get her before i left so I did not leave her in the hospital. Leaving her was just as hard as hearing our baby has died. we had a funneral for her and a stone made. I go every few days still and check her flowers or replace them and spend hours talking to her. I have peacec when I leave. Its been 2 weeks and i am getting better but still can't sleep. I miss my Ally Grace so much.. We still don't have answers yet and may not.. I want to try again..but am scared to death too as well.. The only thing I can tell others is lean on GOD and GOD alone. He is My strength, My peace, my comfortor.. NO WAY could I do this wothout HIM.. I still cry, ache for her, smell her clothes, look at her pics we took, and think about her daily.. BUT God is making it more barable.
Writting things in a journal helps too.. My heart aches with you all who have lost babies.. Trust me.. Leaning on God is the answer.. You still hurt and miss your baby But HE makes it a tad easier... and the Bible says..to be absent form the body is to be present with the Lord.. If she can't be in my arms and with me.. I am glad she is with the Lord...He is the best daddy and I know being saved, i will see her again soon.

Misty

A loss at full term

2 years ago I sadly had a stillbirth at 40 weeks and 5 days. It was a shock as I was at home on my own, not knowing what to do as the placenta came out with the baby. Me and baby were addmited to hospital where a stillbirth was confirmed. It was the most orfull pain I had ever felt in my life, and still is. 10 weeks later we got the results of the postmortom. It confirmed our suspicions that it was a placental abbruption. The placenta had bacame detatched from me, probbable the day befor I delivered him. Maternity staff were puzzeled as I didn't have any bleeding, any pain or any other signs. I had the perfect pregnancy untill the birth. Although I know what happened, it still angers me as I can't be given a reason as to why the placenta bacame detatched. It doesn't seem good enough.

2 years on it still hurts very much, but it isn't as raw as it was. For a while I struggled being around other babies, and looking at pregnant women. It made me jelous, and angry at the same time.

I have just found out that I am pregnant again this week, and I am very happy. I thought I would be confused and terrafied, but i'm not. I'm looking forward to it, and i'm very hopefull for the future.

Jan Hooper

2 pregnancies, both ended in a missed miscarriage

Hi, i'm new to all this, but wanted to share my story with others. I am 27 and have fallen pregnant twice. Both of these ended in missed miscarriages. I've read all the statistics, and understand how common it is to experience at least 1 miscarriage during a fertile life span, but 2 is slightly more rare. I can't help but feel it is something I've done. I used to smoke, but gave up a long time ago. I've suffered with discharge for a few years, and have had swabs taken, but nothing comes of it. So maybe that has something to do with it? I've been told that they wont investigate why, until I've had 3 miscarriages. I don't think i could handle another 1! 2 in the space of 5 months, is quite hard. Is anyone else going through the same thing, as I could do with someone to talk to about this. Thank you for your time. X

Lucy