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Goodbye Baby

While waiting for my husband, I dropped by a friend's clinic to have some chat. Our talk led to pregnancy. She told me that if I don't agree with my husband's desire to have another baby it is not God's will. I left my friend with such thought and proceeded to my OB. It was only when the doctor was proposing a Fertility Program that I saw my husband was dead serious of us having another child. So when we went home I started praying that God will bless us with one.
Few days after I decided to have pregnancy test. The first five (of different brand) pregnancy strips revealed two different coloured lines: weak positive. It was so confusing and frustrating. Last week of March, before an out-of-town company outing, I decided to test again. So upon waking up at 4:00 a.m. I immediately got hold of the kit. And Lo and behold two dark lines appeared! I was really pregnant. The following day, i went to see another Ob (my OB was on leave). She told me that I need to take some vitamins and medicines. My baby's heart beat was weak. After two weeks of taking the medicines, I went back to see her again and she said baby's heart beat was normal.
I felt great and happy and so started to write a baby diary. I wanted to write down my thoughts concerning my pregnancy and hopefully have the diary be read by my baby when she or he becomes an adult. However, GOd has another plan.

Last April 21, while at work, I had spotting. I went to the hospital. My husband was out-of-town. I was waiting for my slot for the Ultrasound when I experienced heavy bleeding. when I saw so much blood I got so scared and cried. I have to insist with the hospital staff that I be attended immediately.
It was so sudden. I knew the baby was gone. I was so scared, so upset and so alone. I was immediately brought to the OR for D&C. FEw minutes after, my husband and friends arrived. Their presence brought so much comfort to me. I really still do not know what really happened. Physically, I know I need to rest from my daily activities at work. Emotionally, God give me the grace to be at peace with myself and just continue to hope in Him. I have set my mind to be physically and mentally prepare myself for another chance of having a baby again.

Eva M. Dantes

help

hi my name is anna i just found out that i was 6weeks pregent and lost my baby.it has only been 2 days but i feel so empty i have 3 children already but i feel so sad.all i thik about is how would this baby look lke.before getting pregent i relly did not want a baby i was teriffed of getting pregent but ny husbun wanted a 4th baby so i agreed but now i want a baby but it is not this simple i want this baby i have lost ,i feel like maybe getting pregent could fill this sad feeling that i have and the truth is that is the only reson that i want a baby just to fill the sadeness of loosing my baby any one feel this way.

mandy

My beautiful baby girl

I found out 2 days after my birthday that i was pregnangt. I was only 2 weeks along but I new that I was pregnant for sure. I was a little nervous due to past miscarriages but i just kept trying to stay positive plus my boyfriend was so excited. We found out the week before christmas that we were having a girl! I had a dr.'s appointment on Jan. 15 and the student dr. couldn't find Emersons heartbeat but my dr. came in and just said that her heartbeat was low and that there wasn't anything to worry about. I was still very nervous though so on Jan. 18 we headed to the hospital for them to tell us that our beautiful girl wasn't breathing. We had everything ready for her at home and she wasn't going to be coming home with us. I went through 12 hours of labor and at 9:02 p.m. Emerson Grace was born. We got to spend 10 hours with her and love on her. She is our precious angel and she will always be loved!!!

Stephanie

my lil Zachariah James

I had my sleeping baby on March 4, 2010 after a week of complications. The week started on thursday the 26th of February when I went to the hospital with a discharge, found out it was my mucus plug. I was reassured that it would regenerate but the next day I started spotting called the dr and he just told me to take a load off and keep my appt for the following Monday. Sunday I started bleeding heavily and the dr still said keep the appt for Monday. I go see dr Monday found out I was dilating and was sent to another hospital. Found out there my bag of waters was bulging, they placed me at a head down slant position hoping the gravity would have the bag go back in so they can put a cerclage in so that i can stay pregnant for at least another 7 weeks. On March 4 at 17 wks pregnant, my lil Zachariah James was born sleeping. This has been a hard time for me with all the questions of why and could this have been prevented. I have now started to go to group meetings and counseling. We have also decided to try again but with another dr.

Tonia Fox

loss of twins..

I never understood how hard it was to loose a child until last week. I have had three successful wonderful pregnancies in a row. all three children were born breathing.. but sadly when my second child was 12 weeks old he passed away. I was devistated. after this me and my husband split. I have had an on and off relationship for a few months and was just starting new birth control. my period was due for the 15th and it came and went without even so much as a spot. becuase I had just started a new birth control I wasnt overly worried. weeks went by and it had been 8 weeks since I had, had my last period, but for some reason wasn't too concerned about it. I had nausea but I have several gastric ulcers so I assmued this was the reason for the nausea. last week I started getting alot of pain while I was driving home to the grocerie store. The pain was so unbarable I had to pull over. I figured that it was just gonna be a bad period becuase it had been 8 weeks since my last one. after a while I got back into the car and continued to the grocerie store. after walking around for a bit I was in so much pain I could barley walk. I was sitting on the floor when I started to gag (I was still nauseaous) and cough. after couching I felt this huge gush and it felt like I had passed a clot. despite being in pain I stood up and ran to the bathroom. when I made it into the bathroom I was mortified at what I saw in my underwaear. there was a large mass of tissue grey in colour and I was bleeding perfusly and passing incrediable large clots. I cleaned up and went home immediatly. later that day I went to the bathroom and while I was on the toilet I could feel I passed some more tissue. to my surprise when I looked in the toilet, there was a 8 week old fetus. I bawled my eyes out, I didnt know what to do or think. at this time things were not going good with the guy so I didnt tell him. shortly after the pain stopped and so did the bleeding.. but about 5 days later.. it started all over again.. and I miscarried again. It turned out I had been pregnant with twins and initally one had survived. after talking to the dr. we discovered that the reason the second one died was because that tissue I passed in the very beginning was part of the plecenta. I told the father last night, and he was devistated. I had mixed feelings about the miscarriage before and figured it was probably for the best.. but once I saw his reaction and heard what he had to say about it, I have been absolutly heart broken.. If this hadn't happened, I would of had two beautiful babies to bring into the world approx in november. Mommy loves you babies! <3

Missy