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My Little Angel

I first found out I was pregnant on labor day. I saw my little angel at 4, 6, and 8 weeks through an ultrasound. I graduated from my RE back to my obgyn. I found out on October 27th that my little angel stopped developing around 9 weeks. I am heartbroken, devastated, and lost of what to do next. My little angel will always be in our hearts since we did not know if it was a boy or girl we named our angel Levi Diane.


Katie

Waiting

I went to the doctor yesterday for my first sonogram. We thought I was about 10 weeks along but I only measured about 6 weeks and 3 days. After reviewing the sonogram, the doctor informed me that the yolk sac seemed to be collapsing. After she told me this, I just sat there. I didn't ask any questions. Now that I have digested this information, I realize that I am very confused. Am I losing my baby? Or is the baby already gone? I just feel very in the dark about this. My husband is very supportive but I can see it is having a major strain on him as well. The doctor should be calling me in a few hours. I have had no signs of miscarriage, other than this empty feeling in my heart from not knowing what is going on. Prayers would be greatly appreciated :)

Juli

Dealing with my Loss

I have heard stories from friends and family members regarding miscarriages but never knew I would encounter this situation first hand. I found out a month ago that I was having a boy and since I already have two daughters, my husband and I were so excited. With our excitement came lots of plans for our son. I went in on 10/19 for a regular check up and my doctor informed me that she could not find the baby's heartbeat.

My heart dropped and I felt like I was having a bad dream. I felt like I was in a nightmare. I'm devastated, disappointed and my heart is broken. I try to console myself by focusing on my two daughters, ages 3&4. I do think about all of the things that I should have or could have done. It has been a little over a week now and I just want to know how and what I can do to help me move on. It is very hard and at times I think it was the worst experience in my life. I'm coping and everyday I feel a little better.

Ayanna

Loss

I am 23 years old and found out that I was pregnant with my second child, my first being 15 months. I was excited and pulled out all of my maternity clothes from my first pregnancy and hung them up. My mother bought my son a shirt that said "I am going to be a big brother." I did have thoughts about how hard it will be with two children and the stress of trying to work full time. I wanted this child but I wondered if we had been more careful and waited if it would have been better. I guess it is hard for me to do but I will be honest.

When I was 18 long before I met my husband I was in a terrible relationship with a man that was very abusive. He forced himself on me and I ended up pregnant, pregnant and in a terrible place. I decided neither one of up had business being a parent. I wanted no child of mine in this man's life. I had a abortion (the hardest decision I have ever made.) I then left this man and met my husband, married and had a beautiful baby boy.

I found my self feeling like this was God's way of getting me back, like I deserved this in a way for terminating my first pregnancy. I guess I still feel that way to a certain extent. I began to find things that I did wrong like drank too much pop or had a bad diet but I know that there is nothing I could have done to deserve this pain. It has been over a month since I lost my baby at 6 weeks of pregnancy and I still cry. I wonder how could it hurt this much to loose something you never had.

It was the worse to pack up those maternity outfits and tell each person I had shared my good news with (which seemed like everyone) that there would not be another baby right now. Now everyone is asking me when we will be trying again but I am not sure if now is the right time. I feel like this just happened. Even if we started trying again would I tell everyone, probably not until after the first trimester.



Jennifer

So much sadness

I was surprised when I went to the doctor for some routine tests and they told me I was pregnant. I was in disbelief because I had had my period so I had a suspicion that I had lost the baby and thought it was a normal period. I had never missed my period so I wasn't very far along. I kept taking pregnancy tests everyday just to see if my levels would drop before my first doctor's appointment.

My boyfriend is in the army and he was away at training and I didn't want to tell him about the pregnancy over the phone. We were not trying and were using condoms all the time, but I must've gotten pregnant from the precum/ foreplay before putting one on. I tried in the past and never got pregnant so I didn't think I really could. Well, then my mom calls me and tells me her brother/ my uncle passed away.

I told her I was pregnant. Then I took another test for that day and it was negative. Then took one more and it was negative. I knew what had happened then. I had a miscarriage and the tests at the doctor's office were showing positive because I had just had a miscarriage. I was so upset. I called my mom and told her. I was driving to my parents and I was crying the whole way b/c of my uncle's passing and losing the baby. I never told my boyfriend. I had over a week to grieve and he didn't even know I was ever pregnant and I never would've known either had I not gone to the doctor for those other tests.

My mom told me to tell her what the follow up appointment showed. I told her that I lost the baby and they confirmed it and she was cold an callous to me. I was so upset. She told me to tell her and I thought it would bring us closer together. She's super christian and I guess b/c I am not married she felt like she didn't need to be supportive. I should've never told her. I feel horrible. I wish I hadn't told anyone really. I feel like there's no point in telling my boyfriend considering it's not here anymore. Reading these stories it makes me feel like I'm not alone anymore.

Thank you.

Shauna